A young, thinner, simpler
me mistook infatuation
for something quite different.
An inexperienced boy
drowning in consummation
of passions barely understood.
Oh so flattered to be wanted
in that particular way.
Oh so blinded and completely
deaf to what she had to say.
Now older, fatter, bitter,
I mistake consideration
for something more obvious;
my age’s much vaunted
wisdom is just replacement
for wistful thinking that we could
still be flattered or be wanted
in any physical way;
still reminded by missing beats in
sluggish hearts of slowly setting clay.

Comments
beautiful oblivion | May 19, 2008 - 16:58
this is very nice. unfortunatly, it depicts every person who has ever been hurt. ... i wonder, did something happen to make you write this?
Doeslittle | May 19, 2008 - 18:31
Loved last lines in particular - very, very good.
jennifer | May 30, 2008 - 00:42
'wistful thinking that we could
still be flattered or be wanted
in any physical way'
Very sad - I don't think we should ever give up - if we let ourselves feel that nobody could want us, it's almost a curse, willing it to happen.