To the sun

The sun shines  
through the window of my heart , 
illuminating truth 
and warming my dreams
With vivid , technicolour reality
Though you are far away 
I draw you closer 
with every breath
You flicker 
through my thoughts
A kaleidescope of emotions 
Ripple across every muscle in my body
I am washed up 
on the shore of life
Turning in the tide
Pulled back and forth by those I love
Weak from my unrest
The bittersweet taste of wasted opportunity left on my cracked lips
Like the salt of a cleansing wave  
I wash 
yet remain soiled
I sing 
in my silence
I drown
In my freedom 
Whisperers 
Cold , Calculating 
seek out my every move
Pre-empting any happiness
With barbed venom  
The only hope lies in stillness
Not moving
Listening
To breath
To space 
Slowly in and out
Calmly I return
To the dawn...
Of a bright new day
To the sun... 
relentlessly shining 
behind the blackened clouds 
of life's toil.