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Posted by Highhat on November 5, 2011 - 14:16

I only killed their memory
and now…?
They've all passed away.
Drugs and rock and roll
tore their lives apart.
I do miss them
and I wonder
how I got to live on
and why I feel little remorse,
but I do feel emptiness.
Like I am still in shock.
But I try to stay cool,
keep a level head,
trying not to blame myself
for feeling so little emotion.
All units are switched off.
I am a huge question mark.
Why?
You may say: why not?
We’ll never get an answer
because no one really knows.

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Comments

skinner_jennifer | November 6, 2011 - 15:15

Hope I read this poem right Pia, but is it questioning why some people can take drugs and drink
and yet live to a ripe old age? I mean look at Keith
Richards and yet he is still going on, also look at
Ozzy Osbourne, I know he doesn't drink now, but he
should be dead the amount of stuff he put into his
body.

I do hope I read it right, because I would feel so
silly if it was about something else completely
different. Anyway it was a very inspiring piece.

Thankyou for sharing.

Jenny.

Highhat | November 6, 2011 - 17:05

It's mainly about myself Jenn then you know what it is about ;) thanks heaps for reading you were pretty much on track though...
atb
;)Pia

ScoZen | November 6, 2011 - 22:10

Hello Highhat.

Take care.

Highhat | November 7, 2011 - 05:46

You too ScoZen

Beeme | November 7, 2011 - 16:07

Highhat this is so powerful and very well written.

Beeme xx

Highhat | November 7, 2011 - 21:24

Thanks for reading Beeme and telling me what you thought about my poem..

;)Pia

Overthetop1 | November 9, 2011 - 19:30

I can really relate to this. `Die Young and Stay Pretty' as Debbie Harry sang. Though she didn't die, yet she did everything and more (including being a prostitute for a while I think). It's pretty much a game of russian roulette isn't it? Thanks for making me think, as ever.

Highhat | November 9, 2011 - 22:30

Yes it used to feel a lot like Russian roulette- you are quite right OTT..now I am older and more at ease luckily..

;)Pia

hudsonmoon | November 15, 2011 - 02:17

I know this feeling well, Pia. Having been come through the other end while so many left behind. Well done.

Rich

Highhat | November 15, 2011 - 06:29

Thanks as always Rich. So lovely to see you..

;)Pia

maggyvaneijk | November 17, 2011 - 10:53

Very powerful. The ending really got to me: "We’ll never get an answer
because no one really knows".

Highhat | November 17, 2011 - 18:13

Thanks Maggy..kind of you..

;)Pia

oldpesky | November 30, 2011 - 11:14

Hi Pia, doing a bit of catching up today. This one is right up my street.

Highhat | November 30, 2011 - 11:41

I ought to do the same. Thanks for stopping by OP

;)Pia

Stan | December 13, 2011 - 15:52

No... we never do get the answer. My father, bless him, did all the things that are bad for him - heavy drinking, heavy smoking, etc - but made it to 77. Is it better to burn out than to fade away? I sometimes wonder. And I wonder why this hasn't got a cherry, because I feel it should. It resonates strongly with me, anyway.

Highhat | December 13, 2011 - 18:09

Thank you very much Stan that was a kind comment. No worry about the cherry- your comment is just as good.. I think it is too early to burn out at 30 or 35 or 39- don't you? But 77 is a fair age-a lovely long life. My Father died at 76- he had smoked all his life too and sort of burned out too- I think he was quite content with his life- he was lucky I think being content but yes he didn't want to die though.
;)Pia

alphadog1 | December 28, 2011 - 18:50

This should have been Cherried, I love the sound of the words of this piece as I read them aloud. and its apt, not because of my present position, but because there are so many people I know who are like this. If it is a dedication to Your father, there is a real sense of character in the words... I wish there was a place we could go and ask for pieces to be re-assessed. Have a wonderful new year Pia.
Hugs from a battled old dog, that needs to learn some new tricks

Andy xoxo

Highhat | December 29, 2011 - 04:29

Hi Andy- your comment was a cherry to me. Thank you very much for the good words. No it wasn't for my father,but for lost friends.
I hope you do learn some new tricks. I think it is wonderful if I can learn just one little thing each new day.
Hugs back
and a great New Year to you
;)Pia