selected poems (part III)


from the ABC set ФФФФ Selected Poems: 1989 - 2009

1. THERE IS

There's effortless motion
There's such a commotion
There's given a notion
Of who is the chosen
..¦few

There's pennies and shillings
There's goldrings and fillings
There's willingless people
There's bloodstains and grillings on
..¦the steeple

There's madness
There's gladness
There's happiness & sadness
There's just one big mess
There's failure of the test

There's incomprehensible
People on the windowsill
There's things that thrills do cause
There's people who's hearts
are wrapped in gauze

There's too few true believers
There's too few who want to hear
There's too few rich receivers
There's no future for us here

There's so many things that
I would like to sing ¦to you
There's so many blue
There's so many black
There's so many true-ly
..¦off the track

There's so many red
There's so little white
There's so many dead
There's so many who are just,
¦not right

There's so many hearts
broken from the start
There's too many ways to part

There's no love
There's no hate
There's no feeling as of late

I look up above

There's pain in your heart,
in your mind, in your soul

What is your goal?

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2. VIRTUES

Virtues, virtues
Which one do you choose?

When her face sags, sad and sorry
Lines on wrinkled face of worry
Walk daily down the darkened path
See seldom smile or laugh

Does he wear a cute phylactery?
Does his clothing always pass?
Please forgive my jealousy
Oh bonnie lass

Rub quickly in the smooth sweet salf
the love you left in the wake
of taking what you want to take
lost my life on your behalf

Virtues, Virtues
which one did you lose?

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3. DISCIPLINE

Little square blocks
and little square socks
Little square heads
all filled with rocks

Square beds, square heads
Oh the squareness I dread
Square clothes
Square rows of soldiers

Big and small guns
faces burnt by hundred suns
See how around the trees they run
the fun has just begun

Loud screaming
seldom see the faces beaming
Often notice someone dreaming
Always notice them cleaning

Our minds we adjust
Each other we no longer trust
Little guys, big lies
Big guys, little cries¦

¦and sighs and gasps
Sometimes you have to beg
and ask a lot
forgot for what

All shapes, all sizes
No great prizes
A lot of surprises
No reward

Getting so bored
Days sometimes long sometimes short
Getting chased on and on
Then having to wait so long

Guess it can make you crack
I want to go back home
This instant
Goodbye is so distant

4. SHE WHO SAID

She who said she loved me
She who quickly clubbed me
with a word, to absurd,
with deeds to thoughtless to repeat this

So I'll push it away
out of my longest day
away from my infinite night
She saw and didn't react on my plight

Somehow I knew
She wasn't sincere
Somehow she blew
my mind with a mere ¦gesture

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5. TRI- ECHO

sing a song my dear
a song my dear

and please be of good cheer
of good cheer

even though it seems so sheer
seems so sheer

even though it's been so long
been so long

we've been apart all these years
all these years

the end is slowly drawing near
slowly drawing near

oh how I love you
I love you

are you still there?
you still there

my sweet lady fair
sweet lady fair

can you hear my prayer?
hear my prayer

true love is rare
love is rare

agony has been prolonged
has been prolonged

I'm not yet on golden pond
on golden pond

Oh please do respond
please do respond

6. HARMONY WITH ARMOURY

Learn to live in harmony
with a gun,
son

Live in harmony with a gun
said an old acquaintance
learn to always run, mon
he really tried my patience

They were told to get him
in the melody of death
death or a life for a life for him
it's true I felt bereft
Is it all for nothing dad
I was wondering why they looked so glad
is it all for nothing dad
I was wondering why I feel so bad

not given much choice
forced by loud voice
giving us orders
sent us to borders

Is it all for nothing dad?
I wondering why you looked so sad
Is it all for noting dad?
I was wondering why I get so mad

hop the twig in harmony with a gun,
son

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7. MENTAL DEPARTURE

Now I tried and how I tried
what remains but contemplating suicide

There remains memories of how we fought
fortunately not a single filthy thought
within my calloused mind
all that works is 'play' and 'rewind'

We did so well at the start
now we are forever apart
like a ship that leaves her moorings
"aye, aye sir the sailor sings

Had I been a whale I'd ram her
If I was a sub I'd sink her
she's all that I think for, all I drink for
Oh damn her, damn her

come back, oh please, come back to me
you sweet swift lady of the sea
you right royal lady of the rain
you know I'll not now stake a claim

something inside says: "stay alive
something in surplus
says: "there's no purpose

because she's gone forever away
no reunion some sunny day
no clouds with silver linings nay
silently, solemn, staid she lay

Truly, truly, truly tried
What remains but suicide?

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8. ON HER WAY

I must admit, I've gone quite mad
hope you are at long last glad
Holocaust of fantasy
what is it you want from me

Lurking from angles from hell
what they do, to awful to tell
No crooks but cops on paper unwind
Lurk behind your own sick mind

Walking down this wayward lee
Seeing all the sights to see
Ever alert, ever awake
Never know who what will take

Strip me naked with your eyes
Then please try
to misuse me
and abuse me

Do you really want it lady
"What do you really think baby?
says that swerving suggestion
guess it was a stupid question

I see red, scarlet ,crimson
Something smells of cinnamon
We've got noting in common
Send her to oblivion

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9. LUCKILY

There's a man called Pharisee mixing the dough
eating and sharing the leaven
This heathen from heaven
Gormandizing and criticizing so

how can you be what you claim
if you kill your own future generation
you say it's not your aim, it's all the same
tell me, how works your cerebration

this vessel of cant is over manned
it's sailing too close to the sand
sinking in its sanctimonious sea
you, your humbug and affected piety

cantankerous cloning
tireless and toneless droning
making me pretty broody, pretty moody
what makes us think you're phony?

Certainly
Not for me
Holy honey luckily
it's history

10. NEW LINES

My most holy dictionary
What words have thou today for me?
For some decent, recent sentence
Heard enough about repentance

I suppose it is subtle sarcasm
But rather that than your subversive sadism
That's why this man prefers his part
In this obsolete and awesome art

Come try your luck my mademoiselle
We'll write about brethren from hell
We'll write about sixes, we'll write about seven
Hope the hand heals quickly, lady of heaven

So we tell them on paper
Of our perfect paradise
Let go of their lies, pies in the skies
Continue our captivating caper

But why do I say we?
I forgot that it's just me
Left over, abandoned, solitary
Forsaken, forlorn¦lonely

Would rather be with a girl
So pretty, so witty
Alluring, attractive, appealing¦a pearl
Run to your arms wildly willfully
I love you
You love who?
You don't want to
Now what to do?

I love you
You love him
He loves her, see?
And, she loves me.

11. THE WAY IT GOES

Ball white
Ball bright
Ball bounce a new unpredictable height

Wind blows here
Wind blows there
It travels everywhere without a care

Life goes this way
Life goes that way
Victors and losers in the game must play

12. MISPLACED

Hey where's my bloody wallet!!
I don't know John I ain't got it
You speak rubbish, you took it, it's gone...
Sorry it's cool I found it.

Where's my belongings
stolen by the song she sings
convinced it was the real thing
down with Queen! down with the King!

You! where's that girl of mine
My life's silver shrine
heard you took her to your lair
caught her with your syrupy snare

Where's my sober thought
Thoughts that's so costly bought
Stolen! If it's you, see you in court
No one is left to hold the fort

13. SOFT TALK

Marsh mellow white, marsh mellow pink
these marsh mellows may not think
but wait along comes a green one
and a blue, what're you doing here chum?

In marsh mellow packet there's a big racket
"What's going on? "Those outsiders there
trying to be funny "Give them the hatchet
"I agree, let's do it "Seems pretty fair

"They've committed the ultimate crime
"Yes it's time, execution suits me fine
just one left to ask "What do you say reverend?
"Definitely death for this sin their sin? they were different

14. ABOUT OUR NEW KING

Looks like another chrome dome
has taken the throne
is he also disaster prone?
will he make a few new loans?

is he another corny clone
or is he one of our own ?
is he's mind also blown?
will he make a deceptive drone?

is he to be trusted?
will he possibly get busted?
will political degeneration be dusted?
"I'll clean the mess, someone said

will he increase our debt?
has he into lechery leapt?
will he watch our every step?
How well will his skeletons be kept?

is he a hidden red,
or is he friends with the feds
or does he sleep in both beds?
is he, at the back, on target

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15. LOST LOVE

She said she'd pay the bail
if she did it'd be to no avail
because my love is not for sale
so I down another amber ale
walk out of your possessive little jail
into the frosty gale of our forgotten love

go, find some other male
why do you turn so deathly pale?
it's over, please remove your placid veil
that hides the truth so terribly frail
your feelingless heart as hard as a nail
your passionate tale is rotten, not from above

behind you is an aching trail
of others, who, so like me, failed
so I lean on this old lonely rail
supportive music, wait for the mail
that never comes, taste the bitter bale
forcing itself upwards as if by a shove

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16. ACCEPTANCE

Here's a heart that aches
for what I need
There's one that makes
my little heart bleed

and I plead for her affection
she answers with rejection
but I know even though she may go
her own way, she'll still say:
"I love you so

maybe not to me, yes, it is a pity
but as long as she is happy and pleased
I'll just shuffle along with the breeze
unsurprised, I never was her cup of tea.

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