3A. eye of the needle

Through the eye of the needle

I am not writing much at the moment, and find the prospect of the resulting boredom quite discouraging. I am waiting for some CD’s from a friend of mine so that I can learn a bit of French in order to pass the time. I have fixed up my two user accounts and the links on my Facebook account.

It is heading towards December and soon it will be Christmas and the end of the year. Any day now the shops will be gay with decorations and eager shoppers. I do not now what the future holds in store for my writing, but I hope I can one day come back and write a lot again. For now I will probably only be posting stories and entries occasionally, as I wish to start going out again on weekends, and need some time out to rest and recuperate.

I cannot eat and sleep, and shit and write - eat and sleep, and shit and write, in an endless circle. It is pointless. I need to go out regularly from now on and to party and socialize.

When I was young someone once told me that if you are in bad circumstances, and you are in a positive state of mind, you will still experience a state of peace and bliss within yourself regardless of the circumstances. Alternatively, if you find yourself in a prosperous state of being, but your mind is negatively focused, you will experience unhappiness within yourself regardless of your good fortune. Therefore whether it is going well with you, or bad, it is all a state of mind and your own choice regardless of the circumstances.

I live from day to day now and take things as they come. There are no secret recipes to success, happiness and perfection. One must find the answers within oneself…