This Thought

I have kept this thought
for you, whose mind
I adored, whose life
I was part of,
whose love I have lost.

I have kept this thought,
wondering when I would see you
again, across the miles of territory
from this moment to the next,
the void that is now.

I have kept this thought,
tortuous though it is,
guarded twenty-four hours
a day, the emotional strings
of my heart taut.

I have kept this thought
dedicated to you,
with no idea why
as this thought
will never be voiced.