Alphabet of Ending Love (6th February, 2009, 11.20pm)
And where are my last chances?
Before the end, there must be a sign;
Could you not spare me one warning?
Desperate to break the bonds of love;
Easier to leave than to discuss.
Freedom is the only choice you crave; I
Gave you all that I could spare of my
Heart, but those tender morsels
I offered up were an incomplete meal.
Jilt me, trample me like buffalo;
Kiss me once, at least, before you go;
Love will not be disentangled so.
My soul lies scattered in your kitchen;
Nothing can glue the pieces right; I
Oscillate between hurt and understanding;
Perhaps in the end, the time is right.
Question not the motive you lay on me,
Rights do not exist in courts of love;
Sex was just a means of communicating;
There were not always words enough.
Undo the web you’ve woven for me;
Venture an inroad into my mind;
When I miss you, that crumb will be a
Xenon; it will place that sweet solace
You bestowed in the aftermath at the
Zenith of my loss; enhance life without you.
Jennifer Pickup
Xenon: http://www.crosswordpuzzlehelp.net/dictionary.php?q=xenon

Comments
jlb | February 7, 2009 - 01:10
Jennifer, this is brilliant - I think it's hard enough to write with restrictions or within certain guidelines; even harder to make it work. Bonus points for excellent use of xenon :O)
jennifer | February 7, 2009 - 01:18
Hmmm, I confess I don't really know if I am using it quite correctly, since the word is new to me! I was going to wimp out and use an 'e-' at the end of the preceding line, then start the line with 'xcite' and be crap about the rigidity, but then I decided to do some proper research until I found a suitable 'x' word!
Thank you for the kind comment, however! Thought I'd have a stab...to be un-PC...
J x
FTSE100 | February 7, 2009 - 01:32
Which meaning of xenon were you going for, Jen? In everyday usage of the word it's just a gas. You're breathing a little of it at this very moment. Xenon was also a Greek geezer wot done a fing, but unless it's clear from the context that you mean the Greek, it's a gas.
I enjoyed the poem, by the way. Very cleverly constructed. I take my hat off to you. Should have said that first, but I knew a thing and couldn't wait to tell you what it was!
jennifer | February 7, 2009 - 10:52
Well, check the link I included and a different meaning comes up!
Thank you very much, glad you enjoyed it!
J x
Crackersville | February 7, 2009 - 11:12
I liked it, but I think you are contradicting yourself. Perhaps intentionally.
FTSE100 | February 7, 2009 - 11:29
Hi Jen, I think you're making life difficult for yourself by using a crossword puzzle dictionary - it's giving definitions of 'noble' and goodness knows what else. Xenon is a noble gas, d'you see, so in cryptic crossword clues the definition of 'noble' might have a bearing on the matter. Try an ordinary dictionary, or try this:
http://www.google.co.uk/search?hl=en&q=define%3A+noble&meta=
Sean McNulty | February 7, 2009 - 11:58
I agree, the use of Xenon is magnificent, spontaneous and beautiful. 'When I miss you, that crumb will be a Xenon.' Pure poetry, mysterious and enticing.
FTSE100 | February 7, 2009 - 12:33
Absolutely. Pedantry is no substitute for poetry. Xenon works. But it's still a gas...
Sean McNulty | February 7, 2009 - 12:34
Even more perfect is the cryptic crossword connection just made. I can't write poetry, but I admire so much poetry that operates like a cryptic crossword. I'm terrible at cryptic crosswords also, of course.
jennifer | February 7, 2009 - 12:49
Hang on, I haven't stated that it isn't a gas! Does everyone agree that the poem works if we take Xenon to be a gas?
How am I contradicting myself?
Sean McNulty | February 7, 2009 - 12:49
It works with any of the definitions, that's the beauty of it.
Bradene | February 7, 2009 - 15:55
Gas or not I think the poem is lovely. Val x
jennifer | February 7, 2009 - 16:54
Thank you, Val, and Sean!
J x
Crackersville | February 7, 2009 - 19:08
The more I read this poem, the harder I try not to sense a big reality hidden here. It's good and that was my reaction, take it or leave it. A good contradicting poem, perhaps intentionally.
tcook | February 8, 2009 - 17:08
The mere fact that a gay young thing like you, who should be out listening to modern beat combos, is a home at half eleven on a Friday night doing this is worth a cherry in itself. As it is, the poem thoroughly deserves it too.
jennifer | February 8, 2009 - 17:51
Why, thank you very much for the Cherries, Tony! My huge clubbing night in Bristol was ruined by snow and ice preventing friends making it, so instead I went for a curry locally with a different friend, driving very carefully over the skating rink, and then came home and checked out the inspiration point, when I was instantly inspired to write this!
Plus, it would be dancing to metal, not listening to beat combos, am not that civilised! Hehe! x
Thanks, Cracks, for the compliment, I will take it!
J x
FTSE100 | February 8, 2009 - 18:01
It's a gas! Your poem, that is.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DisvInNv8oE
MistakenMagic | February 9, 2009 - 17:09
This is brilliant Jennifer, particularly the last stanza ;)
Magic xxx
Biggus | February 10, 2009 - 12:54
In the inmortal words of Marc Bolan, part of a popular 1970s beat combo, "Lifes a Gas"
Great poem Jen
Paulx
niki72 | February 11, 2009 - 12:49
Brilliant poem. I wouldn't even know where to start.
Ewan | February 13, 2009 - 10:03
'Does it work?'
Yes.