I have a deep dark lake,
I think you all know,
somewhere in the back,
corner, floor of my mind
with things can't forget,
I don't want to remember,
or simply no longer care,
has been frozen solid for
many years now, put away,
safely, in my sub-concious,
but recently, began to thaw,
the last few months, ghosts,
insomnia, panic-attak, fear,
shaking, don't even know why
I feel, so sick, of /myself?
Can I tell you something, now,
this might sound strange, but,
I think i have just remembered
a good few years of my life, &
for all the pain, fear, despair,
it's all over, I shouldn't care,
I have all the old/new knowldge,
I studied so hard to hide there.
I can do all the things I used to
remember everything I then knew how
everything about me improves greatly
tho for some reason I have a creeping
guilt.
huh?
Comments
Highhat | February 16, 2010 - 14:58
inside you ,deep down, is a block of ice ,a frozen lake, where everything you have hidden and let die, lies.Nam Kyoho Renge. Methinks. .
Kahdai | February 16, 2010 - 15:11
O good research! I didn't know of this, it must be time-ghost, that we both had the same idea. :) reassuring. thanks.
shoe | February 16, 2010 - 17:32
Kahdai, you remind me so much of someone I knew, you have the same use of english, It makes me want to help you with your lake, perhaps the writing is a help in itself?, the thawing is a neccesity I think.
Kahdai | February 17, 2010 - 19:50
Aaaw thankyu shoe! I believe that writing this did help & I do need to remember all or nothing, I just wish it would be a gradual thaw, instead of these sudden shocks & at such inconvenient times. Kahdai xx
Lem | February 22, 2010 - 20:26
No need for guilt, my dearest Kahdai! Concerning the lake, thawing is healing; it cannot hide under snow forever. But spring will come. xxx
Kahdai | February 24, 2010 - 18:22
O ^^ thankyu Lem & a lovely way of putting it :) xxx