Application

Isn't it about time that somebody gave me a break? Found this perfect job in a place that I have always dreamt about, totally ideal, but of course it is too good toe true. Don't want to think about the completed application now, all done & dusted, nothing I can do to influence the outcome of the situation. Decided that the best option is not to get my hopes up, as then I won't be disappointed when I don't get the job, well that is the theory anyway. Although I try to keep my mind occupied & away from thinking about the job, it never works, I catch myself daydreaming about the new life I will have up there & how much better I will feel about myself. Then suddenly reality wakes me up & I have to shake those thoughts right out of my head, as I don't think I can take anymore rejection letters. So put the whole thing to the back of my mind, then I can only ever receive a pleasant surprise. Don't you worry about our future when people who want to better themselves & go & study for further qualifications in the mistaken belief that afterwards there will be opportunities for them to utilise the skills that they have learnt? I can still dream & wonder whether or not I will get my perfect job, but the less I think about it the better it is for my mental health. Don't want to set my heart on something for it only to be broken once again, sheer disappointment hitting you time after time is just not good for the soul. I just wish that for once I could have a break to stop the daydreaming, as I will finally be living the life I desire.