day one

21/07/08
Woke up this morning with a stinking headache, only about 5hrs sleep & with a temperature so all in all a great day to start a diet! Left the gruesome twosome in the living room; the 13wk having a naked kick around & the 3yr old playing bob the builder; whilst I went upstairs to weigh myself. 11st 8lb, not great for someone who is only 5ft 2" tall. For the last 4 weeks I've been trying really hard to lose weight but have only managed 4lbs so far & seeing how tired I'm feeling today I can't see things improving anytime soon! My trouble is that when I'm tired I want to comfort eat and my comfort food is toast, not the greatest when you're trying to lose weight. So I thought I'd try a new tack by writing down how I'm feeling & getting on with my struggle it might inspire me to do better! So it's 7.30am, I'm tired not feeling very well & face the prospect of looking after the gruesome twosome whilst my husband sleeps upstairs. Time to go & get a bowl of branflakes & semi-skimmed milk washed down with a pint of water. Oh & to top everything off, I've just found that my husband has left an empty packet of paracetamol in the cupboard, how very helpful!

Typical, I took the boys to the newsagents so that sw1 could get a magazine and when I got back I realised that I had forgotten to get the paracetamol! It's 11.30 & i've had an apple & 25gms of dark chocolate (the rest of the bar is going to be made into cookies this afternoon) & have a baked potato in the oven for lunch with a tin of baked beans; and still I haven't had time for a cup of coffee!

Finally succumbed; just made myself a black coffee at 12.30pm & wandered back into the living room to find 3yr old smelling 3month old's bottom...!

How good am I? Sitting here eating an apple whilst my son sits next to me eating an icecream, how cruel can kids be & will he leave any for me?

Well no he didn't, ungracious little so & so! Am waning now with a bowl of pasta, butterbeans & pesto to look forward to for tea & a small glass of wine from the open bottle that needs to be drunk up! Then an early night to sleep instead of thinking about food!