Dancing To Love

Susie walked slowly up to me with that "It's cool" smile and flipped her strawberry blond hair back with her hands. She so adored her new Jenny Craig body...putting one foot in front of the other to shake the little ass that I couldn't see. "Oh Hi baby,"she said as I sipped my whiskey and Coke. I wanted to say,"Fuck off" but I smiled...licked my lips and prepared to hear more of her bullshit about how she loved me but wanted to date other guys to make sure that I was the ONE.

She was shouting over the music with her left hand on my right shoulder,"Want to go to a party with me...Jess and Marla will be there...they have some killer pot!" I looked in her big brown eyes...then at her cleavage...then at her lips and shouted,"I'll have to pass...I'm with someone...she's in the bathroom!"

It was like she switched on her lying bitch face when she shouted back,"Oh...sorry...I thought you were just dancing with her...didn't know it was a date!" I could see the jealousy bleeding from her eyes. I could feel that she felt uneasy and was slowly getting pissed because I dare enjoy the company of another woman. The song,"Addicted to Love" was blasting as she shouted," I love this song...wanna dance!" I shook my head no...half grinned and shouted,"Come on Susie...I'm with someone!" She then gave me that,"You could have a treat tonight look" as she backed away and said,"OK...Love ya!"

I didn't hear it but I read her passionate, pouting lips. She rushed through the dancing crowd over to a table filled with her girl friends. I saw my date coming back from the bathroom....looking beautiful. I gave her a hug and glanced at my ex-girlfriend. The whole table of five girls was staring at us. They were like bitchy buzzards waiting for me to die. I could feel their scorn because I am sure she told them that I had made her another victim of love. She was playing games and I hated games.

Tammy, my date had no idea what was going on but I told her later. Tammy and I danced a few times and I could tell that the way we slow danced...drove Suzie mad! She would smile when we made eye contact but I could tell it was a forced and fake smile. She wanted me back long enough to ruin what I possibly had with Tammy. If I ever had any love for Susie at all...it disappeared then.

I scanned the crowd and saw misfits, drunks, yuppies, dram drinkers, hell raisers and people who just didn't want to be alone. I took Tammy's hand because I felt out of place. It felt like we were different as I looked in her beautiful blue eyes. The music was even different. The song,"Sittin' On The Dock Of The Bay" began to play and I pulled Tammy to the dance floor. We danced like we had practiced for a hundred years. "This is how love should feel," I thought as we whirled around in each other's arms.

We had only been together a couple of weeks and it felt like I had loved her always. All the women I had ever known except Tammy seemed to disappear during that one dance. It is ironic that the night I fell totally in love....my ex-girlfriend was trying to lure me away. Suzie had the perfect hair, body and bubbly personality but I believe she lacked the heart to love anyone but the image of herself. As Tammy and I left the club...I opened the door for her and looked back.

Susie looked a little lost. That was almost 21 years ago. I can only hope that she found what she was looking for in life. Sitting here typing...our five year old grandson,William, is playing in the kitchen while Tammy is making supper. I hear her giggle at his antics. I reflect back to that night. Still dancing perfectly. Still......so in love.