Wednesday, August 13, 1975......He licked my ankles....I had no idea that something that simple could feel so good. The only thing Jake ever licked was his mother's famous blueberry pie...which compares to nothing I have ever made for him. He should have married her!
Yesterday evening....oh...yesterday evening. I wonder is he is such an animal when it comes to sex with Rhonda? If she brings me one more religious pamphlet...I am going to French kiss her and tell her I am a lesbian!
My back hurts a little today....didn't even pick up the pillows yet....and there...my shredded panties by the TV.....Yummmmm the ripping feeling on my skin was ....oooohhh! Wonder how long till these bite marks go away? I wish I could write down feelings. I wish I could put them on paper and later open them up to cover my body again.
Oh there's Rhonda, watering her roses.....and there's Ray....ooohhh...kissing her goodbye with the same lips that were on every part of my body a few hours ago. He doesn't love me and he damn sure doesn't love her. I wonder if he'll think of his face between my legs when he delivers his Sunday sermon?
I really need to wash this window. There he goes....in the white Nova....must have been the day he gave me a ride to the grocery....glancing at my legs...I looked out the window so he could stare at them...I know he did. His voice got softer at the end of the ride.
Dear diary....I am such a whore! I knew it was coming...I couldn't stop it. Rhonda was gone to her sisters overnight and Jake left Monday for his annual dumb ass hunting trip with the "just us guys." Two little glasses of wine....Ray and I were ripping off clothes within five minutes.
The last thrusts were like earth quakes.....the gushing.....I had heard of it but never believed it....oops...now my toes are digging into the carpet. Men are so funny....Ray was panting and in between pants he said," We.....can't....do...this...again Beth.....we ...just...can't!" Silly bastard....saying that doesn't make him any less of a whore than me!
God...I have to change my life! How do I turn Jake into a real lover? How do I save us? Oh shit...just what I need....Jake's mother just pulled up....great....she is packing her famous blueberry pie! Hmmmm.....I wonder how I would look .....in blueberries?
Jake might like that?
