I dedicate this song to you.

             It had been 6 months since he died. We were just boy friend and girl friend, but he still meant the world to me. That night is still such a blur. I hate to think about it . We were pulling out of the Sonic parking lot, two young lovers out for a date, and then it happened. A red jeep zoomed out of the intersection and hit Daniels driver side with its front bumper. I saw a flash of light, his smile lit up before the impact. He didnt know that was the end for him. I wish it hadnt been. The light of the car blinded me, and i saw the car hit us. And then everything went dark. I woke up in a haze with two figures standing above me. "She's alive! God forbid we loose another one tonight Al." I couldnt form words quite yet, but i realised i was in a hospital with tubes coming out of my arms and my hands were bloody and scabbed. I saw the farmiliar figure of my mom. My vison was still blurry, but i could tell she was smiling at me. She rushed to my bed and took my hand. She looked into my eyes, and sobbed into my chest. "Honey" was all she could say through her tears of joy that i was alive, but i could tell something else was wrong. "Dan?" I said softly. My mom just kept crying. I already knew that he was gone. How could he have survied that. I lost him. Why him. Oh god why him. He was the sweetest human being alive, and he cared about everyone. Why couldnt you take me? I though through a haze of hospital lights and masks. It should have been me.

             I started crying. My mother held my hand and told me it would be okay. But i knew life would never be the same without him. He had always been so shy, and I wished he had gone out of his comfort zone more. We would dance to his favorite songs at dances, but he was always so scared about what other people thought. He should have gotten one more dance. He should have gotten and entire life time of dances, becasue he loved them. Like really really loved them. He was trying to be more outgoing, and i was so proud of him for that. You always hear about the kids that die in high school, and how "God needed another angel" or "their in a better place now" but you know what i say? Bullshit. Thats all Bullshit. God has enough angels and people dont die in a beautiful way, and death should be glorified. People die. And too often its the ones who didnt deserve it. No one deserves death really. It happens to all of us at one point, but he went too soon. He was gone. And maybe he is in a better place, but he made it a worse place on earth now that hes not here. The last dance we went to was the winter ball. He loves dancing, and we danced all night long. He was so timid though, that when his favorite song came on, he sat it out. He was so worried about what people would say. If i had known that it would be his last dance, i wouldnt have let him sit it out. Sometimes I feel so bad becasue I could have made his last days better. I keep blaming myself for his death becasue i wanted to go to that Sonic, and my timing was just right. If i could get those last days with him back, i would.

                Things are better now i guess. Im not as sad as i was a month after it happened. I get alot of sympathy becasue i was his girlfriend of 3 years, but i hate it. I dont need people feeling sorry for me that i lost him. I feel sorry for myslef enough. He was the best thing that ever happened to me. If i could send him a letter, or a text, or call him, or SOMETHING so i could just say my last words to him, i would. I would say, 

             Daniel,

    I love you. I love you more than i can express. When i met you, i thought you were crazy. We fell in love, and as the love story goes, it was fricking awesome. It was amazing being in love with you. And a part of me will always love you. I know how muck you love to dance, so whatever song is playing in your head right now, i dedicate it to you. I want you to dance and bust a move because I love the way you dance. I wish we did more things together while we could. and i really miss having your hand to hold. I love you Danny. I love you. and if this is the best goodbye i'll ever get to give to you, i'll take it. Words cant explain how much i care for you. You were my everything, and the memories we made will never be forgotten. I love you. And if you ever get the chance to sit this song out Daniel, or dance...

I hope you dance.