Hopeless Case

Hello, I’m a Hopeless Case
a consistent disaster
never failing to -
disappoint

Ship me off and tie me down
in a place where I can run,
a blue gown open
at the back.

Entering the ward in a
blurry state but as always
I have hope (a hopeful
hopeless case)

I hope because I might
share common ground
with the other
hopeless lot

Let’s braid our hair
and shave our legs
with plastic razor blades

our bruised bodies unite
as we talk about:

1)the time I thought I could fly
and I jumped off the balcony and nearly died

2)the time I took more than thirty of those pills
and my stomach ruptured whilst I was sleeping

3)the time I vomited so hard
a vein in my eyeball popped
red blood spilled over the squidgy white
I looked like a zombie, it was funny

4) the time I ran in front of a car
because I was angry
and it just scooped me up
and I fell on concrete

5) the time I scraped my knees with shattered glass
to get out of that swimming lesson
I still have those nasty scars
but I've got many more that look worse

all these times tie us
together in daisy chains
made out of embarrassment
and pain

but at least we aren’t alone

in circles we sit
and we nod
and we say we get it
and we howl when it’s too familiar
and we howl when it seems impossible

but when they take me to
that smaller room with the
leather chair that squeaks
when I move

where did all the hopeless
cases go? This person
does not know me but
pretends he does

his lips move like those of
a blow fish I want to
pop my finger in it
and laugh

but he speaks in such serious monotone
and I barely move
and I forget to breathe
and I feel the floor
spinning beneath

And as I always do when they
use incomprehensible words,
words that are supposed to have
meaning to you

I start to whisper
spit bubbles explode
on my lip

I never know if
I’m really insane
or sane in a really
insane world

I guess I'll never know
just sign the sheet with your
expensive pen and let
this hopeless case go