Mesmerising Addict

cold seeps through skin

cooking it in ice

shivers like electric wires

Shorting

Smell of old urine

And unwashed, crotch and bum

that's me

My sense of smell intact

I care enough to reach for the sting

Entering my red rivers

Flooding them with atomic language

Sending false hope to my brain

and heaven to my body

Rather this than yesterday

No food

Only pain

No water

Only rain

No talk

Only silent regard

The eyes from heaven are yours

To me you are as cruel as distant

But I have my saviour.