Losing your faith
is not like losing
your favourite scarf
or your mother's brooch.
(The one with
the golden peacock feathers.)
No. When you lose
your faith there is part
of you that says:
"Don't go looking for it."
There is a bitterness inside
that wants it to remain lost.
You tell everyone
you were talking
to yourself
on those lonely nights;
how could there have been
anyone 'up there' listening?
And yet, in the end,
after a bad, black dream
you find yourself
falling out of bed,
onto your knees,
your hands making mountains -
an arrow pointing upwards,
through your roof
to the sky.
And you realise
you're praying ...
Praying harder than ever before.

Comments
Firebird | January 5, 2010 - 14:29
Hope your prayers are answered x lovely poem :)
MistakenMagic | January 5, 2010 - 14:37
Thank you Firebird! I've only recently realised how many lovely comments you have left on so many of my poems - thanbk you, I truly appreciate it! ;)
Magic xxx
shoe | January 5, 2010 - 16:40
A thought provoking poem, much enjoyed,:~}
MistakenMagic | January 5, 2010 - 16:50
Thank you Shoe ;) Glad you enjoyed!
Magic xxx
MistakenMagic | January 5, 2010 - 18:33
Thank you Beeme ;) I think those are my favourite lines too!
Magic xxx
Beeme | January 5, 2010 - 18:34
I also hope all of your prayers are answered Magic :)
An honest and inspiring poem.
I particularly love the images in the last stanza:
"your hands making mountains -
an arrow pointing upwards,
through your roof to the sky."
Beautiful!
Beeme xx
sabzwin | January 5, 2010 - 21:08
This totally describes something that happened to me recently - Magical!
Great poem!
Sabzwin x
Silver Spun Sand | January 5, 2010 - 21:47
The thing I admire most about this poem,Magic, is that each stanza is entirely self-contained. They follow on seamlessly, but each one is a theme in itself and I think that the majority of its readers will find themselves identifying with at least one of them.
The stanza that says the most to me is the second.
Good work, as always.
Tina xxx
MistakenMagic | January 5, 2010 - 22:48
Thank you Sabzwin! I'm really glad you could relate and I hope you feel better soon!
Magic xxx
MistakenMagic | January 5, 2010 - 22:50
Thank you for your help on this one Tina - and I'm really happy that you like the structure. Just what I was going for ;)
Magic xxx
Nathan Bednarek | January 6, 2010 - 17:10
'No. When you lose
your faith there is part
of you that says:
"Don't go looking for it."
There is a bitterness inside
that wants it to remain lost.'
I can relate to this stanza and the whole poem so much. There was a time when I lost faith and was too stubborn and bitter to look for it again. That was the most terrifying and lonely part of my life. I longed to have faith, I finally decided to do something about it and I found it. Now I do everything in my power to help others find it. I feel sorry for the people who don't have faith and don't see any point in looking for it, thinking that there is nothing to be found. Well, in a way I was one of them, but now that I found something to have faith in I know that life makes sense. I don't care how cheesy or cliché that sounds. Clichés exist for a reason ;-)
Thank you for posting this, Magic. This is one of those poems that I will never forget.
Nathan xox
MistakenMagic | January 6, 2010 - 18:37
Hello Nathan! I'm so happy this seems to have struck a cord with you and thank you for sharing your own experiences!
Thank you cherry fairies for making my day/week ;)
Magic xxx
Silver Spun Sand | January 6, 2010 - 19:08
And I have just noticed your cherry too, Magic. Really, really pleased for you;-)
Tina xxx
MistakenMagic | January 6, 2010 - 19:10
Thank you Tina - I'm still grinning. Just glad some good things have sprung from a bad experience! Thanks again for your proof-reading of this!
Magic xxx
Dynamaso | January 7, 2010 - 06:43
Hi Magic, I'm going back and trying to catch up on all the great work I missed while away. Faith is such a powerful thing, as you have so well captured here. Good one...
MistakenMagic | January 7, 2010 - 07:40
Nice to hear from you again Dynamaso! Thank you for reading, glad you like this one ;)
Magic xxx
Cavalcaderl | January 9, 2010 - 22:42
new MistakenMagic
Well done on the cherry!
absolutely true to life! very good.
Like all of poem especially last stanzas.
Hope your prayers answered, I have experienced
to with faith, plus if loose anything ask "Seek and
you shall find". Owing to big fall, now dark won't go
that way again,to get church some time ago now. Hope all your Prayers+ so many answered in different ways too.
Horse going yesterday again? "MistakenMagic" yes course it won.I thought it would.Hadn't done it. Won before name. Plenty snow here! 2nd lot icey. Not as bad as Scotland, a relative I have. A friend in Australia in warm?
julie x cavalcader (:-
MistakenMagic | January 10, 2010 - 00:48
I'm glad you like this one Julie! It's been very snowy here - I've had two days off school already with more very probably on the way!
Magic xxx
littleditty | January 11, 2010 - 09:12
Aces Magic - well done, this poem made me smile! Big themes, lightly painted bite size stanzarinis :) and a very good read -super poem :)x
MistakenMagic | January 11, 2010 - 15:57
'Stanzarinis' - now that is one brilliant word ld! Really pleased that you like this one ;)
Magic xxx
Cavalcaderl | January 13, 2010 - 21:56
new MistakenMagic
thankyou same here and more broke
ankle once, steps garden no snow.Won;t
risk it.What are "StanZarinas. They say Faith Hope and Charity true.
julie x cavalcader x(:-
MistakenMagic | January 14, 2010 - 07:46
Hello again, Julie! I fell yesterday on my way into school - hurt my hand! But I'm going to have to risk going into school again this morning ;)
Magic xxx
MistakenMagic | January 14, 2010 - 07:46
Hello again, Julie! I fell yesterday on my way into school - hurt my hand! But I'm going to have to risk going into school again this morning ;)
Magic xxx
mmseason | January 31, 2010 - 21:21
Very moving because it is so personal, and touches a personal part of myself (and i gather of many others); and a good poem too, great opening three lines.
I so rarely get a minute to bounce around exploring on ABCtales, so i do feel lucky to have happened upon this tonight. :0)
~ mand
The Travel Hopefully Blog
ps I popped across to Raving Dove because of your profile, and it looks a very good journal, thanx for introducing me to it.
ankari | February 1, 2010 - 20:43
I love this, especially the way the first stanza sets the scene ankari x
MistakenMagic | February 1, 2010 - 21:27
Thank you so much mand! I'm glad you chose to look at my work during your latest visit to ABC ;) Thanks for checking out Raving Dove too! It really is a fantastic publication with an inspiring cause!
And thank you Ankari! This was one of my rare poems where it grew from the first stanza (strangely I usually write my poems sort of backwards hehe) so glad you enjoyed that stanza ;)
Magic xxx
ankari | February 1, 2010 - 21:34
you're welcome, it was a good hook :)
ankari x
MistakenMagic | February 1, 2010 - 21:48
:) You know my latest poem comes from the same experience - it's just a lot darker! Sorry - was that just screaming 'pleasseee comment my latest poem?' lol
Magic xxx
ankari | February 2, 2010 - 08:04
maybe it was, but that doesn't mean I won't oblige :P ankari x
InspiredWriter | May 25, 2010 - 18:23
Very lovely poem, the structure just stuns me because it is so perfect. Everything word fits in beautifully with the next.
LOVE IT (:
InspiredWriterx