A Loner's Unexpressed Love Story

I studied in a school which transformed to coeducation after four years. It altered the atmosphere. Boys started gossiping about girls. They would be at the staircase to get a glimpse of them. They would follow the girls where they go. They would do certain incredible thing to impress the girls. I also observed that girls also preferred them. I also admired a girl. I liked her simplicity. I liked the way she talked and smiled. All these feeling were hidden in my heart.

I was in class ninth. I started admiring a girl who was in standard seven. She came to school by school bus. It would arrive half an hour before the school started. I would go to the school half an hour early and hide before the tree. I waited for her bus to arrive very eagerly. When the bus came I waited for her to get off the bus. A smile came on my face when I saw her glorious face. This was the first time of the day when I was able to get a glimpse of her. I used to follow her in breaks. I would wait for her to arrive at the canteen. I used to see taking and admire her. Her smile was worth a million dollar. I would love to see her get on the bus when the school concluded. This would provide me time to miss her for the rest of the day. I began to prefer love songs. I began to imagine her in these songs. I began to cherish this period of time. This hidden appreciation continued for a whole year.

Final exams came. After each exam concluded I would see her get on the bus. When the exams concluded the school closed for a couple of weeks. When it reopened I went to school half an hour and waited for her bus to arrive. Every passing minute seemed like a long day. I was impatient. Finally the bus arrived. The girls started to get off the bus. In a couple of minutes the bus got empty. I could not believe my luck. I went around the bus but could not find her. This happened for a month. Finally I came to the conclusion that she left school for some reason. I decided to move ahead in life. I don’t know why she vanished from the school. If I meet her in the future I would definitely ask for the reason.

I was an introvert guy. I never gathered the courage to propose her. After so many years she is still in my thoughts. Her thoughts make me sad. I could still feel her presence. If I had the guts to express my feeling to her, she would have been my girlfriend and would have never regretted.--