To sit here in thought cheek resting on fist
trying hard to slow down the years,
while wisps of hair fall across my face
landing in the watery fluid,the wish-wash
that comes only adds to my personal burden,
frustration taking control,
"stop this bumbling,"
words once rampant
now I fear lost and hopeless.
"Stop! listen to yourself, make no mistake
this ain't gonna be easy, stuck in self-pity
saturated by confusion,
you took a journey went to hell and back,
had a baby and nearly sold your soul out for money,
but survived, out of bins, walked streets
trusting no one, learning to beg was your game."
Waking up to a new day
you put your life back on course,
went to the graveyard the church calling you,
inside a prayer maybe answered
but then the tears start to flow,
I hear these words inside my head,
'take my hand don't hesitate,
the sands of time are running late,
life is but a turning point
don't let yourself down
don't disappoint.'
Time to change an unseen presence close,
leading me on to where I find myself today,
It wasn't easy I had to learn 'the hard way'.

Comments
fatboy74 | March 12, 2011 - 22:30
One of the best of yours I've ever read Jenny and another brilliant opening:
'To sit here in thought cheek resting on fist
trying hard to slow down the years'
Really well done and very good IP response.
Highhat | March 12, 2011 - 22:41
A great take on the IP Jenn- well done- I like the lines
"waking up to a new day
you put your life back on course"
Brilliant
;)Pia
insertponceyfre... | March 13, 2011 - 06:22
I really like this one Jenny - a very thoughtful and honest interpretation of the ip.
You have a typo in line 16 (bet it's your spell-check) - it should be no one
skinner_jennifer | March 13, 2011 - 11:05
Hello Fatboy,
I really take your words as such a compliment and
thankyou so much for reading. Many, many years have
passed and I sometimes think this happened to a
different person, I have changed so much. it's a
strange old world.
Thanks again.
Jenny.
skinner_jennifer | March 13, 2011 - 11:11
Hi Pia,
the IP this week really said it for me, all those
memories from the past came flooding back.
I was so glad that you enjoyed reading this one and
thankyou so much for reading and commenting.
Jenny.
skinner_jennifer | March 13, 2011 - 11:15
Hi Insert,
glad you enjoyed reading this, thankyou for your
comment and your help, I have put the mistake right
now.
Thanks, Jenny.
Silver Spun Sand | March 13, 2011 - 11:20
A frank, and emotive poem, Jenny, which must have taken a lot of inner strength to write. Much admired;-)
Tina
skinner_jennifer | March 13, 2011 - 11:44
Hi Tina,
sometimes I find things so easy to write, then other
times I struggle, this was a struggle, yes you're
right it did take a lot of inner strength, but it's
because of the kind words from people such as your
self, that I don't mind sharing my past and also I
find it helps to write it down.
Thankyou for your kind comments, they are appreciated.
Jenny.
luigi_pagano | March 13, 2011 - 14:35
A poignant poem that fits in perfectly with this week's theme, Jenny, and much more cogent as it reflects reality.
Luigi x
skinner_jennifer | March 13, 2011 - 15:02
Luigi,
what can I say, but thankyou for your kind words
and for reading it means a lot.
Thankyou again.
Jenny.
skinner_jennifer | March 13, 2011 - 15:06
Hi Cherry Pickers,
I have just tuned to ABC Tales and couldn't believe
it, I am very grateful for the cherries and glad
that you enjoyed this piece.
Thankyou so much.
Jenny.
Highhat | March 13, 2011 - 15:56
You really have achieved something which you learnt the hard way Jenny. You should be proud of yourself for picking yourself up with a little child in your arms and getting to where you are today. Twin congratulations- with the good life and the cherries. Well done.
cheers and hurray
Pia ;)
skinner_jennifer | March 13, 2011 - 16:01
Hi Pia,
it was a very nice surprise to see the cherries,
and I am so grateful for you coming back to me,
thankyou so much for your congratulations, it's
really cheered me up a lot.
Thankyou again.
Jenny.
Silver Spun Sand | March 13, 2011 - 16:06
I can only echo Pia's words, Jenny. More than well done...on everything;-)
Tina
RachelPatricia | March 13, 2011 - 16:15
This is brilliant, Jenny -
'you took a journey went to hell and back,
had a baby and nearly sold your soul out for money,
but survived, out of bins, walked streets
trusting no one, learning to beg was your game."'
&
'take my hand don't hesitate,
the sands of time are running late,
life is but a turning point
don't let yourself down
don't disappoint.'
- these are such powerful stanzas and really capture both the desperation and determination, very much enjoyed and congratulations on the cherry :)
Rachel xx
skinner_jennifer | March 13, 2011 - 16:49
Hi Tina,
that is so kind of you to come back to me with such
nice words, it has made me feel really happy.
Thankyou again.
Jenny.
skinner_jennifer | March 13, 2011 - 16:55
Hi Rachel,
I really am over the moon at the response from so
many kind people. You are right these are
powerful stanzas, I'm so glad that you were able to
read this through my eyes and understand where I was
coming from.
thanking you for reading and commenting it's always
appreciated.
Thanks again.
Jenny.
RachelPatricia | March 13, 2011 - 17:03
You are very welcome - was a pleasure to read,! I've much respect for you, too - such a strong woman to have made it through your difficulties, and such a talented woman too to word it so beautifully - go, Jenny ;o)
Rachel xx
shoe | March 13, 2011 - 18:53
The comment above says it all really, there is so much strength and honesty in your poem, it's inspirational.
fatboy74 | March 13, 2011 - 21:31
Brilliant cherry for one of my favourite abc talers. :-)
skinner_jennifer | March 14, 2011 - 09:43
Hi shoe,
it's very kind of you to read this piece and leave
such a kind comment.
Thankyou so much.
Jenny.
skinner_jennifer | March 14, 2011 - 09:48
Hi fatboy,
It took my breath away yesterday, that so many
people were kind enough to leave such lovely
messages, when you are writing you never quite
know what to expect a piece to turn out like,
when you put it on to ABC Tales, so I was over
the moon when I saw the cherries.
Thankyou again for coming back to me, it's so
much appreciated.
Jenny.
Cavalcaderl | March 14, 2011 - 19:23
new Skinner_jennifer
Well deserved cherry!
Explained life so completely.
It can be hard,like your title, sad
tragic may be, and a babe I know.
But that presence you say hold on to it
no matter what.And prayers.
Song "When I feel the touch of you upon my life".
Thankyou sharing it, it is very difficult to type
exactly what one means, how it will be accepted, and
should I have done it.Have a good week-end.
They say it is by life's experiences and sharing, mainly caring for other's helps one self eventually and others.
But then it is called abcTales everyone has a story to tell says.
julie xx
skinner_jennifer | March 14, 2011 - 19:36
Hi julie,
thankyou so much for your lovely comment, it's good
to hear from you again.
You know your right about holding onto the prescence,
because I believe I have a guardian angel and I no
some people don't believe, but that is my faith and
I hope it is the one thing that has got me through
a lot of situations.
I think it's only by experiencing being down in the
gutter, that you can learn to appreciate the simple
things in life, and it's certainly made me realise
how lucky I am to have what I have now.
Anyway I'll stop my ramblings and say thankyou for
reading and the great comment, it's always appreciated.
Jenny.
sue dinum | March 14, 2011 - 20:39
Yes, I like the reflective opening, Jenny - takes you right in. That's all I seem to be doing these days - wondering where the years have gone. Once again, thought-provoking and truly one of your best. Deserved cherries.
sue
Cavalcaderl | March 14, 2011 - 21:00
New skinner-jennifer
Hi! jenny forgot to say yours is good
one attempt for (IP) you have done.
Well that song from ahealing centre and she
is blind,plays guitar. Amazing, been week being
got at three. Things doing gone wrong, now going right or cancelled or muff ears got wrong week and date. But other night although not been church over 3 months. The dream and happenings can't begin to say. Just blew me away! still recovering spiritually. The beautiful black cat "Jazz" been in loves warmth comfort, tell him he's beautiful went. Pst came a vocie said before your win, won £13 then £2.50p. Got money back after trips on pavement and steps here, I truly fell "Colin Firth" here, "The Kings Speech" brill: film I could feel it all tear dropped wanted help him speak.Daughter sat no emotion cinema knees owch. Daughter taking me, ouch. Happenings can't say, spiritual. Nobody would understand. Then took me see "Black Swan" hurry across road back in lovely wedged boots treated me, hurry mum lights, bang over went electrical tank two
now see metal edge, so went into flatties while.
Memories once not sure m then argument wedding waiting op, cheshire all got lift bad, we had come back babe by train, in laws gave son and girl lift home. So left note boarded train with babe and nappies food, all way then could, somerset to a relations, got there last bus gone, so police station
went, phoned in law couldn't put me up my realtive in
navy at sea, nice so police asked again spoke, sent taxi collect me far to late get home they said police
could have been put in cell if not. Stayed week came back. So that's another story, some have empathy help
some families don't. So we never know people's lives
or what changes make them do the things they do do we. Bought Hello mag and like you says special angel's watching over me. But post previously back for children's educational fund I gave regularly bit, wonderful letter back and I'm an angel god.Wow
How my fund helps so many. "Little Flower" to do good on earth and cards send all angels on beautiful etc. And prayers can be sent etc. Take care. Course do have a special statue here from holy shrine used go to several years.
julie xx
skinner_jennifer | March 14, 2011 - 23:10
Hello sue,
I am really and truely grateful for your lovely
comment, it's so kind of you to take the trouble
to read this piece, I have to admit it was quite
an emotional roller coaster ride and feel like it
happened to someone else, it was such a long time
ago.
Hope things pick up for you soon, keep smiling.
All the best.
Jenny.
Sooz006 | March 22, 2011 - 01:05
Beautiful.
People who have suffered and struggled have so much more to be grateful for than those who have had a charmed life. The older we become the more chance we have of losing somebody, struggling financially, coming up against mean people, horrible people, hurting or hurtful people. This reminds me a bit of a song called, 'I Miss the Hungry Years'
A beautiful poem Jenny. You know, you come across as a genuinely, lovely person.
skinner_jennifer | March 22, 2011 - 11:00
Hi Sooz006,
You know you are so right about the older we get the
more chance there is of loosing people to death, I
have lost count how many people I have lost, but I
have my faith and it gets me through.
Thankyou for such a kind comment, I seem to remember
that song, but for the life of me cannot remember who
it was by.
By the way I just love your sense of humour, very
funny.
Jenny.
seannelson | March 24, 2011 - 20:10
Hey, I like it. High marks for honesty(I mean, without it, why are we even writing?)
skinner_jennifer | March 24, 2011 - 20:57
Hi seannelson,
thanks for your honest kind comment and I agree
with you one hundered per cent, though sometimes
writing about my past life is difficult for me to
do as it really feels like it happened to someone
else, it was so long ago.
Thankyou also for reading, much appreciated.
Jenny.