Tortured lessons are what I learnt that day,
the residence said a so called safe haven...
to howl at the moon would have been a safer bet,
madness resides in every corner,
I had to learn quick to survive
fear was not an option -
don't stare...lips shut tight,
only inner thoughts prevail -
nowhere to hide feelings...
smile or I just may cry... a
black cloud then to veil me -
like a clown my mask goes on,
hideous granny with knife at my throat...
glares angrily - beady eyed into my face,
"scum bag," with arrogance, she calls me,
I said nothing - just stared at the floor,
my purse went missing -
all my money gone...
her pimp came calling
down the fire escape
they were bound,
off to do business
the sort not allowed,
though fearful and frightened
in a strange kind of way...
these battered - tortured
victims... became friends and
companions, who helped to make
me the person I am today, in
that Womens Refuge so far away.

Comments
MaggieG | September 5, 2011 - 17:13
Jennifer,
Might I suggest you flesh this out even more ? More often than not victimization does NOT make angels. It makes mean spirited people who wheel that horrendous cycle a little further down the line. But once in a blue moon... You find that human being who carries scarring lessons with a dignity, and grace. You speak of such in this piece, and I for one would love to know more
Enjoyed this read, very much :)
skinner_jennifer | September 5, 2011 - 17:24
Hi there MaggieG,
glad you enjoyed this piece. You know when I look
back on those times, they were really hard, when
I say those women made me what I am today, it's
because of the hardship, that I appreciate what I
have today, that I'm safe and secure now, with a
loving partner and a son who is now in his late
20s.
We have both been through so much and I'm writing
a dear diary, so eventually when I get to that time
in my life, I will probably write a lot more about
the time I spent in the refuge, but it was in the
early 1980s, a long time ago and although I've been
through other situations, this was certainly the
strangest.
Thankyou so much for reading and the very nice
comment, much appreciated.
Jenny.
Silver Spun Sand | September 5, 2011 - 18:05
Hi there, Jenny, a brave and courageous write.
A small typo in final stanza, should be 'tortured'.
This stanza, particularly poignant:-
"nowhere to hide feelings...
smile or I just may cry... a
black cloud then to veil me -
like a clown my mask goes on,"
More than 'well done' on this, Jenny.
Tina
fatboy74 | September 5, 2011 - 20:06
Very brave writing Jenny and a good read - Tina is right this is a more than well done. :-)
skinner_jennifer | September 6, 2011 - 08:49
Hi Tina,
thanks for the help, I had a bit of a laugh at my
spelling mistake, it sounded like they had been
torched the way I spelt it, where would I be without
you, thankyou so much.
I think each bad thing that I've been through in my
life, each obstacle I come up against, just makes me
even stronger, I know it might sound strange, but
those women did me a great favour, even though I
didn't know it at the time.
I suppose you could say it helped me wise up to the
darker seedier side of life, which I hope I never
have to experience again.
Thankyou for reading and commenting, you know I
always appreciate it.
Have a good Tuesday.
Jenny.
skinner_jennifer | September 6, 2011 - 08:55
Hi there FB,
I'm so glad you read this piece and could appreciate
it.
I suppose I have been in some even stranger places,
now I look back, but this was the one that sprung to
mind, when I thought of the IP.
Thankyou for reading and such a nice comment.
Jenny.
oldpesky | September 6, 2011 - 09:40
Good morning Jennifer, hope you are well. This took me quite by surprise, as did your comments below it. Like MaggieG I'd like to see more of this too, perhaps in a different form. You know I've been trying to get you back into story writing for some time. Could this be the one?
Thank you for sharing this. I feel I know another bit about you now.
skinner_jennifer | September 6, 2011 - 12:26
And a good morning to you to Oldpesky.
You know I would love to write another story, even
to complete the Indian story, but I'm sure you know
what I mean, when I say I'm having writers block,
although I'm in the process of writing a story, but
again I'm unsure of the ending, but funnily enough
an ending did come to me last night.
I hope that the story I'm in the
process of writing will be enjoyed, it's completely
different from the 'Chosen Ones.'
Thankyou for reading this and for your wonderful
vote of confidence.
Jenny.
MistakenMagic | September 6, 2011 - 14:15
Great poem, Jenny! But yes, maybe this would make a good one shot story? This is a brilliant character study nevertheless. Well done!
Magic xxx
skinner_jennifer | September 6, 2011 - 14:33
Hello Magic,
Thankyou for reading this, you never know since I'm
getting feedback to write a one off story, may be I
will, it's something I'll have to think about.
I like your comment about character study, never
thought of it like that, just happened to pop into
my mind, as an I.P.
Hope you are having a good week, and not getting to
wet. Take care.
Jenny.xxx