Fear

This fear that I have,
I carry it around,
I carry it into the nothingness and above,
It's close to my heart,
But not in my mind,
But my head it is in part,
That song is stored away,
At the very bottom,
And it's there to stay.
His face goes along with it,
Even if I couldn't give a shit.
My mum's face in that house,
Will never leave,
Even if she's with another spouse.
My dad's heart on his sleeve,
Tears and stares through me,
That will never leave,
Are we chasing cars around our heads?
I know they will never leave me dead,
Will my cuts ever be deep enough?
Will I ever have the strength
To pull the plug,
Or just stay and chase cars around my head.