1582 AD

I refuse to be discouraged.

Fitbit can have that effect. Fitbit keeps track of how many steps I take each day. I set the goal and go for it. I used to make sure that I got in 10,000 steps every day.

This of course was BC (before Cancer)

AD (After Diagnosis) the number started to drop.

Once the fatigue set in, Fitbit started to discourage me as the numbers dwindled.

About a month ago, I took Fitbit from my wrist. It had run out of battery power anyway. I decided not to charge it. I was too goddamned fatigued to walk up the stairs even if I had an interest in doing so, which I did not.

You don't need a weatherman to tell you when the wind blows and you don't need a Fitbit to tell you that you're on your ass.

The only steps I was taking, aside from those taking me from my car to the radiation machine and the hospital, were from the bed to the bathroom until I got the bucket and eliminated even those steps.

And after 28 days of radiation, the steps from the car to the radiation sled also disappeared.

Then a couple a days ago, I began to feel rejuvenated. I went to the ballgame. Red Wings won big time. Doing anything AD is quite a bit different than it was BC so the experience at the ballpark was as surreal as it was soothing.

And bam, the next day, relapse. The return of Freddie. Another day in the pod.

Yesterday, I could feel the relapse retreating. I felt good again. Sorta.

Good enough to resist.

Good enough to climb the stairs.

Good enough to charge up the Fitbit.

Good enough to strap it on my wrist.

Good enough to be encouraged by whatever the number of steps added up to.

Recognizing the difference between BC and AD.

I got in 1582 steps.

A beautiful 1582.

1582 is about half the steps that a "normal" person BC accumulates in an average working day.

1582 is my starting point AD and I'm proud of it.

Two different worlds BC/AD.

Watch me go ino the new world.