Good Vibrations

Having survived prostate cancer, I know a thing or two about the process, at least MY process. Everbody has a different journey. I am full of gratitude that my journey went as smoothly as it did. I began writing on ABC tales the day that I was diagnosed when everything was up in the air. I can't help but think that sharing my story helped a little bit because I had so many people pulling for me from so far away. I didn't share my diagnosis outside of ABC for a few weeks when I knew more about the situation when I found that my case was TREATABLE.

Sometimes I go back in my writing and look at the lens through which I was viewing mortality in those first few weeks and I must admit that I am surprised at the equanimity I summoned during that waiting time which we all know is the hardest part.

I let me heart over rule my head. My heart sent messages of hope and gratitude to my brain which short circuited the potential high beta brain waves that my fear and anxiety was trying to amplify.

I could tell the difference between heart messages and brain messages.

In every fetus, the heart develops first. We keep thinking that our brains our running the show but that's because our brains control the microphone of our subvocalizations and always claim to be the boss....always striving to do or to solve. The heart is more concerned with "being" rather than "doing". Let's face it, no matter what we do, we still have to confront the blessed realm of our being. If our being is off kilter, it effects the momentum what we do.

I've just found out that one of my best friends is on the cancer journey. His road is different from mine and from all others who have embarked on that road. He had prostate surgery but his PSA count increased rather than decreased. I'm not gonna try to explain PSA other than to say that mine was at 16 before radiation and is now at .04. My friend was hoping to get that kinda report after the surgery but to his graet surprise his PSA rose from 7 to 11. His doctor was as shocked and disappointed as my friend with those numbers. His doctor suggested radiation until he discovered more news. The cancer had spread to the lymph nodes and the way prostate cancer develops, the lymph nodes are generally the first to be affected by the spread.

My friend has confided in me and now I'm confiding in you as none of you know my friend so his confidentiality is secure.

Meanwhile, I've been concentrating on my heart. The heart is where vibrations begin. The heart is full of love and faith. I'm too far away from my friend to share those healing vibes personally. I've come to believe that our vibes coincide with social distancing. The closer we get, the more our vibes can be recieived. Yet every heatmessage counts.

Our vibes, no matter how strong tend to mix with the vibes of our environment so I've been trying to keep my environment as healthy as I can while sending out invitations for others who have connected with me from a distance to connect with me once again with hope, faith and equanimity. Yeah, we are in the hands of the world but while we're here, if we pay attention to our hearts we can get the whole world in our hands momentarily and affect what we can.

Whatever happens is supposed to happen but guess what.... miracles do happen. It's common to see life as linear. At some point we learn about the non-linearity of existence and with the flight of so many black swans that it becomes tempting to view the non-linearity as catastrophic which we think cushions our shock from whatever catastrophes await us. I am learning that life can be viewed as miraculously non-linear which helps to prepare me for and influence the power and frequency of the miracles that I observe every day which I can manifest even if I can't create.

The mere fact that you are reading this, if you have read this far, is helping you which helps the world which influences the vibes that are getting through to my friend.

Thank you for reading.

Bless your heart.