Inside I Shrink and Die

It came out of my mouth,
and stabbed you in the heart.

I know it's too late, and the blood is flowing freely.
Your shock has turned to a blind defence of anger as you struggle for breath.

It's not that it wasn't true,
we both knew it was true,
It's that there was an `understanding`,
written on hearts and minds,
that it would always remain unsaid.

Now the breach made,
causes an ocean of confusion,
to flood and penetrate.

How do you respond?

Have mercy,
be more merciful than me.

I want to look into your eyes,
but it's too soon,
I've changed,
for you I'm a stranger,
and you despise your former trust,
and vulnerability.

All `feelings` of well being towards me,
are turned off suddenly,
like a tap.

Now the cold tap in full flow,
to cleanse any old `feelings`.

This new realisation must shut me out,
"No really, I'm fine, forget it".

Inside I shrink and die.