The Schizoid Christian (The Princess and the Pea)
By mark_yelland-brown
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It’s all very subjective
That truth saved me from rejection
From polite
And not so polite Society
I found Him
Or more Biblically
He found me.
I had a rare type of encounter
With the absolute
I think I must have
Because all changed
Utterly
A terrible beauty is born etc.
The paradigm shift
The realisation of the `Other`
Not only being a reality
My reality
No longer alone in my head
Thus
My heart.
Thirty years
No time off for bad behavior
Thirty years
And the dawning reality of a love walk.
But from the very beginning
Well
Pretty soon anyway
This pea
Somewhere in the mattress
And I don’t identify as a Princess
Believe me.
And it seemed to me
To be just me
Who had a problem with
You know
The unmentionable place
That doesn’t end with eternity.
And the flavour I belonged to
Which for me
Was true Christianity
The strictly biblically correct
Type of Christianity
Believed in the neverendingtormentingalwaysconsciousflametorturing
Type of Hell
Which has been for twenty eight of those thirty years
A pretty insistent
Tooth ache.
As someone put it
Better than me
It’s like having a nearly
Perfect puzzle
With one piece
That doesn’t quite fit
The more I recognised who I believed in
The more I actively experienced agape love
The more subjective revelation
Clubbed me heart wise
The more I knew Him by His name
Love.
The more I saw lives
Transformed
From dark to light
From refuse to Glory
People literally healed
Sometimes
In front of me
The more I understood
His loving nature
And the idea of this eschatological geographic
Began to disturb
And appall
I suppose that could be the point
Of it all
But not for me.
And then love
Himself
Led me to the Church
In its history
And those Early Church
Fathers
Some who’d stayed true to the text
But believed differently
Interpreted it differently
And yet some had even composed
Our Creed
Gregory of Nyssa. Basil,
Origen
Et al.
I was led to texts
By believers
Who like me
Had Struggled with Hell’s
Eternal anomaly.
And I discovered the thread
Down the ages
By those
Who see the Cross
And the Saviour of the World
As One who saves all
Utterly.
And what I had previously
Believed
As an outright heresy
Was actually
A valid Christian
Doctrinal reality
Hallelujah
And other appropriate
Praise type
Phraseology.
And now?
I stick out like a sore pollex
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A great poem
A beautiful piece. The long run-on word was especially effective.
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