There is a Letter..

There is a Letter..

there is a letter that i did not send..

it consisted of thoughts and emotions of a depressing nature..

i sat awake late one night.. crying..

thinking about my attitude towards life..

i knew that i needed to change the direction i was heading, but could
not find the will
to do so..

i knew that it had to be hard on you with all my bits of depression,
but how hard i would
never know..

i thought about my life and what i was going to do, and realized that i
did not know..

i came to conclude that i did not deserve your love and told you to
look somewhere else..

i told you to find a better man to be with because i felt that i was no
longer it..

it was the hardest letter i ever had to write..

yet i could not send it..

i could not bring myself to put it in the envelope..

i still have it.. tucked away in a file where it will never be
sent..

why?? because i love you and i want to be with you!!