carnival ride

dark rooms; pressed lips; zippered dress; sharp hips
click of heels; click of clocks; click of doors; click of locks
click of pen; cluck of hen; tears are spilled, don't give in

storming, sunny, stormy once more; sunny, cloudy, raining
head pounding. don't give in. don't give in. blood like raindrops.
don't give in.

brittle smile; faltered laugh; honest words; future bloodbath
anti-depressants; anti-anxieties; therapy? call the psychiatrist?
head pounding.

problem; solution. problem; solution. calculation.
cold, hard calculation. dates to be made. lives to be saved.
decisions to be made. problem; solution.
future calculation.

life on a balance beam.