Showed Me The Light

There was a time in my life
that was filled with naught but strife
years of being bullied had led to my fall
and now I was struggling to hold my head tall

I was a self harmer, and suicidal too
I simply didnt know what to do
with nowhere to turn, and no reason to live
I'd used up all the fight I had to give

I'd been in hospital-The Mental Health Ward
with this life of mine I really was bored
I had no confidence left in me
I wanted to die and set the world free

The world would be better without me here
that thought was in my head for over a year
I had nothing left, I was a walking wreck
I longed for the cord pulled tight round my neck

With one last attempt to get my life back
I joined a course-started on another track
At first I was scared I wouldnt fit in
Once again I'd be left in the 'reject bin'

The second week I dreaded, we had to go away
A new place with new people-5 horrid days
but my fears soon faded, for once I had fun
could it really be my life had begun?

I still had the doubts though. What right had I
to have fun here when I really should die
The world would be better if I wasn't here
that was a thought I had for over a year

One evening my team leader showed me my worth
"You have every right to be on this earth"
these were the words she said to me
these were the words that set me free

At the time I simply laughed, brushed it aside
but she'd hit the nail on the head with how I felt inside
I never found the words to thank her, how could I?
How can you thank someone for stopping you wanting to die?