Another Void

And this is the end,
I face the abyss,
Just another void?
I silently scream,
My arms are numbed,
I've begun my ascent,
So why not smile?
Just a life,
No reason to postpone,
My fate is upon me,
As is the piercing split,
My wrists open up,
I let the pain out,
Marvel at my own creation,
The adrenalin flows,
The horror is immense,
Then it dawns
I never said goodbye,
In my urgency,
I forsake explanation,
To the few that loved me,
The few that cared,
But what to do?
I'm carcass now,
Dead for sure,
No-one for miles,
I'm out here,
In this Church of Pain,
Alone and despairing,
Then I look up,
All ties binding to earth made destitute,
I have transcended,
I'd hoped for a heaven,
But I'm fading,
The blood loss,
I turn to face,
Endless demons line a tunnel of fire,
The real fear sets in,
Nothing but confusion,
I hear children crying,
Mother's dying,
But the blood,
It fills my eyes,
It's everywhere on me,
But these demons smile,
I have arrived,
The void has engulfed me,
Dead tots crawl,
Dripping with blood,
They clamber for toys,
I reach out,
I see the hatred,
What is this pandemonium,
Is this within me?
What is left,
When goodness and virtue become too easy,
And the challenge of bitter hatred lulls us all?
I have created my own hell,
Man has made death, so may death
make Man