I want you to know that I am doing this for you

My dressing gown is shearing my skin
I am sleep derived and overheating.
The only way I can trick
this pinprick of daylight that’s left
is to treat myself like a child
lie convincingly
and pretend
that I’m doing this for you
not him.
Then reassure myself
I won’t fall asleep yet
Anyway
It doesn’t matter.