I Die

I Die
Everything is damning me
Condemning me
Punishing me
My rosy perfect existence
Has turned black
No time to love
No time to laugh
No time to waste
But time to scream
Time to cry
Time to hate
Lost in grief
Lost in strife
Lost in pain
I drown and I drown and I drown
And I drown and drown again

Everything is burning me
Turning my insides out
Scorching me
Hurting me
Deaf to my screams and shouts
Everything is harming me
Killing me
Smoking me out
I choke
And I claw
Out for a friend
But I only ache more then
I leap helpless and hurt to my fate
And I choke and burn and suffocate
And choke and burn and suffocate
And suffocate, and suffocate again

They won't help
They just hurt
They neglect
And desert
Can't reach out
So I give in
And the pain returns once again
They hold the knife
In their hands
Unaware of their actions
Desert and neglection
No need to help
Cos there's nothing to gain
So they stab and I'm stabbed
And I'm stabbed and I'm stabbed
And stabbed and stabbed again

Resurrected from ash
Survived whipping
Lashing
Tearing
Like a phoenix
Which I am not
But they fear me
They hear me
They charge me
For crimes uncommitted
They blame me
Because out of nothing
I was rebegott
Accusing me of being
Things I am not
Raise their guns
And they aim
With their blame
And they fire
And it's pain
And I'm shot and I am shot
And shot and shot and shot and shot once again

I struggle
I gasp
I fight
I tie up my fears
I cover my ears
I scream
I compress the anger
I oppress the hurt
I don't reach out
I reach within
I lock in the pain
But I die and I live
And I die and I live
And I die, I die
To live and die again.