I jumped... and then I hit the water. There was a big splash. Just like the other kids who jumped with me from the tree. The water was cold. I felt it to my bones. I swam. I never thought I could swim. It was my first time to dive into the lagoon.
I've been dreaming to jump into the lagoon from the day I saw its blue water. Or, maybe, I should say, he's been dreaming to jump into the lagoon from the day he saw its blue water. I was merely a part of him ... until this morning.
What in the world did happen?! It seems like I came to my own being. I can now stand up and walk apart from him. I can now do the things that we were not able to do together.
I still can not do things by my own will. He controls me like a puppet on a string. It is he who decides what to do. From his wheelchair, he sends me to wherever he wants me to go. He could not go around without his wheelchair. That's as long as I can remember. It must be the reason why he has been trying so hard to make me come to be, physically.
I used to exist only in his daydreams. I looked like him, talked like him, perhaps even walked like him if he was able to walk. To reality, it is as if I popped out of his daydreams. What in the world did happen?!
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06-25-09
