Why Does God Not Listen to my Prayers?????

The year 2010 initiated my downfall. I left the job with the belief that I would get a better one. This didn’t happen. After trying for a complete year, I came back home with a heavy heart. I was completely disheartened. This was just the beginning of the worse. Every day I used to hear scolding from my parents and younger sister. I prayed to God and asked for my death but God didn’t grant my wish. I began to pray twice but in vain. God wanted me to suffer because he wanted me to teach a lesson. I had no friends. I could not share my feeling with anybody.
 
More worse was on my way. In 2013 my father suffered from cancer. People started blaming me. They told me that he worried a lot about me. He could not answer any question about me to the people. In this process he got this lethal disease. His treatment started. I was not confident about the on-going treatment but I had complete faith in God. I prayed thrice a day. I learned that imagination is a great tool which helps patients get out of deadly diseases. I started using imagination. My faith was shattered on 1st March when he passed away. Once again God didn’t answer my prayers.

In 2014 I completely broke down. People started gossiping about me. Everything was against me. This was the moment when I got familiar with the evil side of the world. Every door of hope closed for me. I had heard that prayer has a lot of power. It can change an individual. It can give anything you ask for. I prayed to God, to make people co-operate with me but all of them started getting against me. All the prayers brought me negative results. The advocate is not taking my court case seriously. The agent is not helping to get my insurance claim. There is nobody to guide me. I had heard a proverb from childhood that “those who have nobody God is there for them”. I have neither God nor people with me.

I am still sorrowful asking for my death in prayers but he is not giving me what I want. I see more trouble and misery in my future. I have accepted my faith but I still believe in the power of prayer. One day God would wake up from his deep sleep and fulfil my wishes.