Dont Apologize

dont apologize
if that was even to me
i dont need you to be sorry
to fly on home
im stronger than i think
i saw that
when i spread my crow black wings
and flew
and you wont stare at me immediately
but when you do you wont look away
if you are still shrinking on my glare
than i have not affected you
all i wanted was to be your friend
i wanted phone calls
hugs
you to invite me round
never got squat
and i figure ill move on
theres friendship elsewhere
where im not giving up so much of me
to matter to you
i dont feel like i succeeded
but i dont think i have failed
maybe youll look a little harder
next time somebody tries to trust
i know you dont think your anything
and that you dont matter
dont know you kept me going with a smile
and buried me with every slight
but im just flying past
and soon enough i will be a black dot in a sunny sky
and probably youll forget
i am a crow in that i fly
and that i do not leave a trace
i didnt even build a nest
ill be gone too quickly
this is not suicide
this is freedom
im sorry i couldnt be your friend
im sorry i couldnt fake apathy
fake selfishness
because i cared everytime you cried
and less about me
so dont apologize to me
you are just telling the truth
and im not good enough to be
as self-obsessed as you
and im not insecure
even if im not pretty
i hold tabs on who i am
and if you made me forget
dont apologize
cause i bet that was my fault