Swallow me whole

Taste coffee
On your lips
Open my mouth and wish
You would swallow me whole

Delicate
Soft scratches
I miss
Your bitten nails
Your smell
Traces and memories
Craving
Fingertip indentations
Marking me
Making me
Owning me

I wanted to say
Today
Small words
Better words
I wanted
To bring you back
To the lift

To a time I could
Taste coffee
On your lips
Smell garlic
On your hands
Open my arms and wish
You would swallow me whole

Skin
Often scarred
I miss
Your shaven head
Your teeth
Remnants and memories
Burning
Shocking underneath
Confusing me
Leaving me
Not believing me

I wanted to say
Today
Clever words
Dismissive words
I wanted
To bring you back
To my arms
To a time I could
Smell garlic
On your hands