Grr-My complaint !!

By Highhat

Sat, 15 Oct 2011
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A thanks to FTSE100 for the new genre. It suits me pretty darned well today.
This is a personal rant and nothing but. Whoever feels sorry for me or sympathizes may say so. You may also say that I am an ungrateful person if you feel like saying that.
I know a lot of people around the world don’t have as many opportunities as I have, nevertheless that doesn’t really change the way I feel about living here. That is what my rant is about.
I am really very dissatisfied and maybe I am just a gnarly old so and so but…
I live in a housing area. It is very extensive. I suppose we are about 3000 people give or take a few. There are about 100 house numbers in two and three story buildings with a lot of different sized flats so we are many occupants. Some of the flats are single room ones, some are 2 roomed (mine) , some are 3 and then there are the 4 room flats. We all have our own bathroom and kitchen and a balcony. So what?
I live on the second story- at the top. From my living room I look across at a 3 story building , a lot of kitchen windows, a bit of sky and some treetops. From my kitchen window I can see another building- 2 stories, a roof and a lot of sky (if I sit down).
Well I am tired of living here. When I first arrived, a couple of years ago I was thankful just to have a place to live; a place where I could put all my deceased Mother’s furniture and kitchen ware and start up house after having lived on the streets for a while. So I know you can imagine my joy when I was offered a place to live. On top of it all in an area I was fond of with forests and a pretty town with a big castle in it and castle gardens.
It’s just that the housing area is quite a busride from town and a bit of a walk to the forest. Basically I am a nature child. I.e I have always lived close to nature- so close that I could look across orchards while sitting on the loo and at other times the loo was nature itself.
I feel penned in-up whatever! I’d much rather live in the country-far away from everything and everyone-hehe. Here you can hear the neighbours very clearly- you can even hear them argue across the street. You can hear when someone bashes someone else up, you can see and hear when fathers or mothers hit their children, you can hear the kids crying. But you can’t do anything about it.
I used to live in a place where I could see the stars out at night- there were no street lights about and I could see the sun rising and setting, hear the animals in the forest and pick wild flowers and herbs in the forest and on the meadow.
Now there is nothing but buildings, footpaths, cars , angry people and discontent and unhappy children. This is depressing me.
I hope I can get away at some stage. I am working on it.
That was my rant. I know there are a lot of people living in this housing area who are quite content but I have been spoiled by nature so I will be moving on, I hope. Don’t want to be stuck here for the goddamn rest of my life!

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Comments

Submitted by Silver Spun Sand on
I can identify one hundred percent, Pia. I was born and brought up in London, and I couldn't wait to move to the country. It was a while coming and I do hope you will soon find somewhere you feel at home. By the way, I hadn't noticed the 'Rant' category. Could be very useful;-) Good luck in your quest;-) Tina

 

Submitted by Highhat on
Blessing- thank you so much for your encouraging words- Gotta stay focused...;D ;)Pia

Submitted by Highhat on
Tina- I suppose I could try visualizing and stick to it which I am sure I can and I am willing to wait until the perfect time! thank you so much for your sympathy. Really warms my heart and helps me continue my quest. ;)Pia

Submitted by hudsonmoon on
It was a good rage and I do hope you find some comfort soon. I was born and raised in Manhattan. I still work there, but I could never again see living there. I wish you the best. Rich

 

Submitted by Highhat on
Thanks Rich- that was very kind of you. I hope I get it all sorted out soon. ;)Pia

Submitted by animan on
I don't see this as a rant so much as an extension of horizons of personal worth and value, of expectation and hope. I see it as a whole new stage in personal growth, as a linking back and a linking forward, as the start of new things. I do think also you should get into politics and start a huge campaign against abuse of all forms.

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on
Hi Pia, never give up hope, when things get really bad, let it make you stronger and more determined. I think you have done really well for yourself, I'm sure you will get to your dream in the end. By the way, there's nothing wrong with a rant, it proves your human, with feelings, needing to vent them, to others who I'm sure completely understand how you feel, is like talking to a friend who is always there to listen. I really hope you find your dream. Jenny.

 

Submitted by Highhat on
Aloa David- I have tried politics but I don't want to be all mouth and no personality- hehe but maybe someone should look into this abuse matter. You may be feeding my head ideas. It's nice to get some encouragement. Thanks a lot. You are really very kind- did you know that? ;D ;)Pia

Submitted by Highhat on
Jenny- I am so sorry I never made it to London to meet you and I am certainly hoping I get a second chance some time. You are truly such a wonderfully kind and giving person who I would be quite delighted to meet, I know. thank you so much for your kind words and wishes. Yes I guess it is a bit of a dream. But I can be very determined when I have a dream so maybe, just maybe I'll get there some way or other. Thanks again ;)Pia

Submitted by animan on
Well, Pia, in the immortal words of Esteban Vielho, "I should warn you, young lady, I am susceptible to flattery". Me and Esteban, we go way back.

 

Submitted by Highhat on
I think we all should flatter each other a bit more- maybe the world would be a better place...we need to tell each other that we are all right, all of us...

Submitted by animan on
Yes, I agree, but that just wouldn't be British!!!!!!

 

Submitted by Highhat on
It wouldn't be DANISH either. This is a egoist society. But I suppose that is the general mentality around the western world.. don't you think? I am a bit critical- we have to think more positively and look at all the best facets of modern day life. I think a lot of young people are very intelligent and manage so well in this rat race.. none of my kids do drugs and I am so thankful and a bit of a proud mother...

Submitted by animan on
yes, i'm very glad your kids don't do drugs - and YOU should be very proud of that. i don't think mine does either - but then again, drugs can have their place - nicotine n alcohol at least. if it weren't for n n a i'd have binned myself long ago. i think egoism is confused with self-expression too much, particularly when the latter comes out of oppression coupled with too much dosh.

 

Submitted by Cavalcader on
new HighHat I truly understand your feelings and rant. Good for you. But coming from a big family was the same in our days, here. And police then did nothing on any, domestic rows.Until putside say. Neighbours always, shouted each other. If wind up record player had, played loud to wall, come and knock door1. As baby sleeping. All so different now1 You can and will fulfill your dream, always think positive! Go many places you can, asking. Alternatives. Mind you here neighbours and flats got all problems. Not ours,way of lives so different. Community mixing in. No knocking doors borrow cups sugar, and 1/- gas. Keep on looking on books and ways,to fulfil your dream. Do it while your young and can have the ability. Go for walks,shops and cuppa. Or film creative things say all help. all the best Bob Dylan's The Times Are A Changing! We all need each other in so many ways! We will have go back to ABC beginning. Materially some have so much, some none! Yet, we were happeir when poor. Even now. A pet is very good. We don't have one, but regular cat snuggles up in our duvet, laughed so much yesterday, on his bed. Touch and stroke lightly. Pokes his nose under his? jumper little face is a picture. "Green Eyes". I think most families no matter what. have to interact and young with old, help. Debate on t.v last night. Especially young and babies and housing costs needing rooms. Take care most disagreements here.Too. Joining things so important and doing. Now I find. No matter age! When I was a kid, visited my nan,could two then next door to her, shouting each other, problems. Nan would knock wall at her age, and say stop and call there names out as both had problems connect each other Mother and grown up daughter then kind of mind problems. Way way back. House and flats not built sound proof even to-day, hear light switches go on, all quiet. No music on. Ps Sorry, it's sign of the times mostly everywhere. Papers state we let out endorphines if bad. "SadnesS" called ,buy a light lamp shines low voltage, makes people feel good. Well I take myself off,walk now, anything especially if mine is at sport. Most high rise flats, difficult all. I lived in town we did, I help someone they help me babe then, neighbour do my hair maybe,I'd shop for them. But now been here quite few years, hello! good night goodbye! if and when long shifts then to do. All over now.Doesn't work strange! I'm starting read book "Starlings" 'Errinmett' terrific. chapter stories true of all characters all eventually come back. Very good. Now "Long Song". 'Andrea Levy' read and pass it on! We have big rules here now, no conker playing children, may get hurt. Daft. No window boxes fall on someone. No mats n/homes trip. No scooters children in playground, how daft allow in the first place. Used take and parents take it home. Difficult times for all. Children will wind you up. True belated pop, say could make or break a marriage, we were 8.Some. Children can fantasise things not true,if break ups seen it happen, for more love and attention, I know. Buy yourself nice bunch flowers,or box sweets, glass wine,some cheap cushions soft music. How old are yours. Got to bring hugs, back paper says good. If lucky! or do it back, some don't like. If your children old enough, sit in chair,get them to relax your forehead stroking finger tips out centre forehead,and massage shoulder salt cellars lightly or someone talk shut eyes closed,person not you,chat! of nature fountains, breathe in and out slowly relaxing very part, forgetting all. Get someone to do. Not heavy hands though mind over matter let go all. Close eyes. Say forget all focus on beauty and surroundings mentioned feel sleepy bit. Works Garden needs doing but "Russett Leaves" hanging down,like poem did on here. Gorgeous. Watched t.v. Trade Rogues awful. So sum up good things where you are. Hope get right decision. julie xx

Submitted by Highhat on
There is a lot of truth in what you say Julie- thank you for reminding me that we are quite a few who have to put up with this. Nevertheless I am planning on moving to a quieter place. I intend to spend old age content with life. It hasn't been too quiet up till now! atb ;)Pia

Submitted by Highhat on
Thanks for reading Sundays... ;)Pia

Submitted by Overthetop1 on
I completely get this Pia. I used to live in a conrete jungle. My Dr said it was adding to my depression. I thought things would never change. But we managed to scrape up a mortgage and moved somewhere nicer. We were only able to do that as house prices were lower and we were both working. It couldn't be done now. But the feeling of frustration and feeling trapped still haunts me & ome nights I dream we are still living in a tenament, and wake up so glad to know we aren't. Your rant is great & honest & true. I do hope things can change for you.

Overthetop1

Submitted by Highhat on
That's it OTT- a concrete jungle though we are surrounded by pretty areas- they are just a bit far away for everyday pleasure. Well thanks for reading. I do do gardening at our local Community centre and that is nice... ;)Pia

Submitted by deejay on
I too can call myself a nature boy. The first thing that changed that was tv. Damn tv. Then I moved to college. And then this. I'd be lying to myself if say that I didn't want to go back to those early Saturday morning when everyone was asleep, and nature was just awaking. And I was the first one to bid her good morning. One day...