Pride

I sure would
Like to live my life over
From scratch

Everything- well almost
Everything
Would be changed

I wouldn’t change my sons
I would change myself

I wouldn’t inherit anything
Not even the money
Or the furniture

I would be independent
From day one

Nobody would lure
Me into anything

As a six year old
I would say No

As a 10 year old
I would kiss my mother
On the cheek and
Say Thank You

As a fifteen year old
I would do my grades
And be satisfied

As a twenty year old
I would have my baby
And just
Love everyone

As a thirty year old
I would work hard
And purposefully
Make all ends meet
And be the perfect Mum

As a forty year old
I would be as sane
As the professor
In “No lonely nights”

At fifty
I would look back at it all
And say to my sons
“ I’m always proud of you”

And be proud of myself

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Comments

skinner_jennifer | February 19, 2011 - 20:01

Hi Pia,

I think you are perfect just the way you are,
all the things that have happened to you have
given you an insight into what your life is all about now.

Hope I haven't been a downer.

Jenny.

Highhat | February 19, 2011 - 20:37

No you are'nt a downer Jenny- you never are. You always have some wise words to say. I must say thank you because that is really a very nice thing to say- that I'm all right as I am. I really think it is so kind of you to say that. I wish I could be satisfied with my past but I'm not- I think I have done some really stupid things. But I suppose that also gives my life today a bit more quality- recognising that it could have been better and then living more wisely now. well I am rambling
Peace and Love
;)Pia

insertponceyfre... | February 19, 2011 - 22:43

I really like the way you go through the years in this - also the simplicity - it works very well

Highhat | February 19, 2011 - 22:50

Thank you very much Insert- really appreciate your comment as always
;)Pia

seashore | February 19, 2011 - 23:11

I agree with insert, Pia

Highhat | February 19, 2011 - 23:23

Really appreciate your reading and commenting seashore
;)Pia

SundaysChild | February 20, 2011 - 01:07

Very good.

Highhat | February 20, 2011 - 08:55

Thanks SundaysChild
;)Pia

shoe | February 20, 2011 - 10:31

I think many of us feel this way at times, don't be so and hard on yourself, a perfect person would be unbearable and make me feel inferior!

Silver Spun Sand | February 20, 2011 - 12:48

I agree, so much with shoe...I liked this, Pia, very much;-)

Tina

Highhat | February 20, 2011 - 13:13

Thanks Shoe- a little more perfect than I have been would be nice though haha
;)Pia

Highhat | February 20, 2011 - 13:14

Thanks Tina
;)Pia

jonahs cough | February 21, 2011 - 14:38

this is very touching and honest. thanks for the read pia

MistakenMagic | February 21, 2011 - 22:17

I agree, the honesty is wonderful. I'm nineteen, and already thinking about how my life could've been different - it's nice to muse, but dangerous to dwell. I'm sure writing this poem has helped, anyway! :)

Magic xxx

Highhat | February 21, 2011 - 22:42

Thanks Jonahs- you are welcome- thank you for reading.
;)Pia

Highhat | February 21, 2011 - 22:45

Wise words Magic- I will not dwell upon it. It's nice to get it out and on print though. :D thank you for reading and commenting- I was wondering where you had gone. I bet you have been busy at Durham!
;)Pia