Road-kill Beautiful

Little knives in Tracey’s mind
carve tunnels to better places
but I’m glad she was there that
day on the bus, wrapped like baby
Jesus in a shower curtain
and bruises and bright red cuts

Shoulder to shoulder I ask
about her life, a sharp turn
and we collide –
tangerine hair that smells of
youth and through her lips I
discover we are bound by
the delicate fabric of
loneliness

“I’m looking for someone,” she says
I ask if I can join

Before Tracey, I was the
world's worst lesbian
unable to even look
at a girl but her wasabi
green eyes capture mine
and I let her fill the pot-
holes of my grey empty life

just saying her name –
fizzes in my mouth like
sherbet, a kiss

I knew I could be this
my new self simmered
at the surface, like an idea
desperate to meet its reality

We hit the road driving straight
through the September chill past
snowy mounds, off-white like old
bones and lorry lights blind our
eyes from time to time. I fall
in love over and over
but

I’m not a concept
she says
I’m just fucked up

the car grows silent like a
playground bereft of children.

At Truck stop 99 we sleep
some nights, she - consumed
by a desire to dye her hair
steps out of the men's loos
in a shade of blue that you might
find on
a Dutch souvenir or
a pack of peppermint gum.

Tonight
I see her kissing someone
else, some lizard lady with
false teeth and my heart flutters
against my ribs
but I keep it to myself

and suck my tears
so Tracey doesn’t
realize how much
I need her

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Comments

Kilb50 | August 2, 2011 - 07:06

Excellent work as ever maggy - and one of the most vibrant, intriguing opening stanzas I've read for a while!

Silver Spun Sand | August 2, 2011 - 07:51

Agree with Kib, maggy...hands down! Once again, amazing stuff;-)

Tina

luigi_pagano | August 2, 2011 - 08:18

I am not familiar with the book, Maggy, but your interpretation gives me the flavour of the story.
I perceive the unhappiness of two troubled girls attracted and united by their misfortune.
Expertly written in a prosetry form, this piece is quite dramatic.

Luigi x

maggyvaneijk | August 2, 2011 - 08:25

thanks everyone!

skinner_jennifer | August 2, 2011 - 09:50

You have a remarkable way with words maggy, you
seem to capture every thought and feeling in this
woman's mind.

An amazing read, well deserved of cherries.

Jenny.

MistakenMagic | August 2, 2011 - 09:52

Absolutely love the title, Maggy. And such an intriguing tale too! You paint a really vivid picture. Well done! :)

Magic xxx

Beeme | August 2, 2011 - 16:16

I really like the title too. I agree with the above comments. This is out-standing- sherbert kisses- there are so many lovely phrases. I enjoyed very much.

Beeme xx

insertponceyfre... | August 2, 2011 - 21:06

beautiful maggy

celticman | August 2, 2011 - 21:49

I think the words kind of undulate, up and down, with emotions and the end of the poem/story is just the right kind of down. Wonderful.

maggyvaneijk | August 2, 2011 - 21:56

thank you and Richard I'll be sure to check Runaway out.

RachelPatricia | August 3, 2011 - 13:48

Running out of ways to express just how much I adore your poetry, Maggy, I really am! I've tried, and I just can't get the 'Baby Jesus' image in the opening stanza out of my head, and I'm not sure I even want to. Amazing writing, as always. Have you ever thought of putting a collection together? Maybe with some of your photography included? (I've checked out your site, my favourite is 'Raspberry Hill', thought the title was inspired!) My library will never be complete without one of yours on one of its selves - please regard this comment as your first, advanced order! Love the title and am now compelled to source the book - thanks for a brilliant read, and for the reading recommendation ;)

Rachel xx

maggyvaneijk | August 3, 2011 - 13:52

Gosh Rachel that's an extremely nice comment! I'm at home in Holland at the moment so it's quite a postage hassle sending poems off to magazines etc but I will do so when I'm back in the UK and maybe after a while a collection will be possible :) Thanks so much for taking the time to check out my photography as well, I really appreciate all your kind comments. Have a nice afternoon!

x

Overthetop1 | August 3, 2011 - 14:01

An incredible opening for an absolutely exceptional piece of work. Wow is all I can say!

RachelPatricia | August 3, 2011 - 14:03

You too, Maggy, and you're very welcome - the pleasure was all mine :)

Looking forward to you being back in the UK soon, then you can get that much-anticipated collection started! I'm clearing shelf-space as we speak ;)

Take care,

Rachel xx

seashore | August 3, 2011 - 16:56

You do come up with the most original titles, Maggy - pulling the reader straight in and once in you're glad you're there and sharing a journey. That's how it feels for me anyway.

Cavalcaderl | August 3, 2011 - 19:48

new Maggyvaneijk
Well deserved cherry!
It is a cracker! No I don't know the book.
But you certainly have nailed the poem and prose,
head on. Made me think at first of another story in the paper by the title, not. It was mentioned then a road kill was Murder.
I love the words just saying her name-
fizzles in my mouth like sherbert kisses, great and many more. Have a good week-end
yes, Maggy photos and writngs underneath of you very good. Thanks for that found out where mine, went to one had taken at people's day, dvd, onto the big cardboard cut out peek a boo head holes,photo one Prince Regent, one bikini in pink. I couldn't stop laughing! If only? Hurry back, more stories please,
can't do or tell them like you.
julie xx

oldpesky | August 3, 2011 - 20:41

Having finally caught up with all your work I now eagerly await your next new release.

barryj1 | August 4, 2011 - 02:01

"... and through her lips I
discover we are bound by
the delicate fabric of
loneliness..."

This is just one of a dozen lines I shake my head over and wonder where Maggy's captivating imagery comes from. The originality is upstaged by the transparent honesty. You created a scene, a coming together, a pilgrimage of lost souls that works perfectly. Very hard to do but you got it all in this amazing verse.

shoe | August 4, 2011 - 10:48

I agree with Rachel here, A book of your work would be top of my wish list, then I could get a Maggy fix whenever I want! I totally agree with what everyone has said about this poem, fantastic.

alphadog1 | August 11, 2011 - 15:33

I love the first stanza, generally a great piece of work, well deserving a Cherry. well done.

alphadog1 | August 11, 2011 - 17:58

thanks... sorry I'll repost them here... I am a bit rubbish on this website, I was amazed when my work got cherries.

maggyvaneijk | August 11, 2011 - 18:00

haha no you can do what you want I just meant I didn't feel right receiving a compliment in a space where your work should be complimented, which it should! :)

alphadog1 | August 11, 2011 - 18:59

ok :)