Catharsis

I bark and I puke
You come close
I am ashamed
I never bottle it up
You wonder
What is my game
I never play
I have no aim
I stay fixed where I am
You wonder
I say keep away
My bile is acidic
I wish I’d choke on it
You wonder
I am ashamed
My emotions are twisted
My personality a mock
My mind a cesspit
My sanity deranged
I bark and I puke
You come close
I am ashamed
Cold and callous
I am left alone
To my own devices
No sympathy deserved
No kindness apparent
You wonder
And don’t come close anymore
Defeatism prevails
In the dark corners of my mind
to find the light
I am blind

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Comments

skinner_jennifer | April 10, 2011 - 14:37

Hi Pia,

I had to look up that word 'Catharsis,' sorry I'm
a bit dumb when it comes to unusual words. I think
your knowledge of the English Language is far better
than mine.

Anyway back to your poem, the pure horror of this is
that to me it is very dark, someone who is in a dark
place. I like the fact that you can write something
dark, yet still make it sound very poetic.

I envy you also that you can write a poem without any
full stops or commas, that is a real art in itself.

Jenny.

seashore | April 10, 2011 - 14:59

A very strong piece and don't you dare delete it, Pia!

Silver Spun Sand | April 10, 2011 - 15:03

I agree with Jenny's every word, Pia;-)

Tina

MistakenMagic | April 10, 2011 - 15:35

Hauntingly beautiful - gritty, but very honest. Very well done!

Magic xxx

Highhat | April 10, 2011 - 17:09

Jenny- thank you very much for your recognition but really I live in the dictionary and thesaurus. You know for someone with a very sensitive mind like me things can get very very dark at times. It is so nice for you to recognise that and helps me plod on. Of course we all feel like that now and again but I tend to make a big deal of it. Ha ha
;)Pia

Highhat | April 10, 2011 - 17:10

Thanks Tina and Magic- you are too kind
;)Pia

insertponceyfre... | April 11, 2011 - 06:35

definitely don't delete this one

fatboy74 | April 11, 2011 - 11:30

Enjoyed this Pia - strong writing, I sympathise with the urge to delete, it's something I struggle with a lot. It's good to get this stuff out I think - far better than it staying inside. :-)

Highhat | April 11, 2011 - 13:55

Thanks FB
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