I’m not tired. I used to say that I never got bored and that I didn’t understand the meaning of the word. Well I didn’t but I do now, unfortunately.
I closed the window,-thought it was a bit cold and turned off the radio. Haven’t got dressed yet and the time is way over 2pm. I’ve never done this before. I promise, as far as I can remember back in time- I have never not dressed in the morning. Maybe as a little girl- no not then either. Things were never that relaxed and snug when I was a little girl. That’s not quite true because when we were on holidays at the cottage by the river everything was just so beautiful and I even have a photo of us kids in our pyjamas early one Easter morning with all our chocolate Easter eggs in front of us on the table. Mum had lugged them all they way with the ferry from the city. Those chocolate eggs!.
It is all too quiet so I open the window again and can hear the distant buzz from the cars on the highway, people on the path way down 2 stories below, children’s voices and the wind. The air is a little chilly but I just cover myself with the duvet. I am sitting in my bed, with legs crossed and my laptop resting on my knees. I love this particular position for writing, really makes me relax.
I have had a couple of cups of coffee- a luxury I allow myself and smoked a couple of cigarettes- another luxury. I’m not going to speak to anyone today and I won’t be seeing anyone either. Not because I don’t want to. I would love to speak to someone, even on the phone but no one’s around.
I haven’t really made any friends in my new town ,yet. On weekdays I go to the centre and there is always someone to talk to and usually something to do but just haven’t got around to sharing telephone numbers and addresses yet. I hope I find someone I can befriend. There are some nice people there and I like the staff too.
This morning I was feeling angry. Mostly angry with myself but I also have a lot of suppressed bitterness and wrath at this community, the politicians and others I feel very intolerable towards. It’s a hard life living in a poor neighbourhood with a lot of different nationalities and creeds and some outlooks on life that I just don’t agree with. For instance the other day a man went amuck in his home and I know he assaulted somebody else behind their four walls. You could hear it. He was shouting and bashing someone around. I have seen them go into their flat. They are a whole crowd of relatives living together on very limited space. Must be pretty tense. Another Mother across the way slaps her child- he hardly even cries- seems used to it and the other evening a young guy was attacked and got his wallet etc stolen after they had beaten him up. Just outside my flat.
I am longing to get away from here. I feel so helpless and get aggravated by incidents like these. I just can’t do anything even though I don’t tolerate it in my quiet mind. So I am going to move as soon as possible to a quieter neighbourhood.
I like the mornings though- especially during the summer months when I can open onto the balcony and enjoy the peace and quiet. I usually get up early for that reason.
But today I am really feeling passive. Couldn’t even be bothered to go down the 2 flights of stairs and empty the mailbox. I keep telling myself that it’s probably empty and it most likely is. I don’t often write letters so I can’t expect to receive any. Most correspondence nowadays is by mail anyway and I do like receiving mails with other peoples news. My life is so uneventful and my imagination isn’t very vivid. I’m not stupid, I just don’t get about much. I get really angry at stupid people trying to pass as “normal” individuals.
I’ve met quite a few of them lately and really, they put my tolerance to a test. I just can’t ignore their stupidity. They remind me of most of the politicians I know of. Instead of condemning Assad and his massacres blatantly they weave their way around the subject with dead-pan words, really not saying much at all. Really aggravates me. I prefer the American politicians, although they are a little slow on the go at least they make a powerful show.
Well this is a bite of my daily life- full of thoughts, not very inspired or inspiring. I think the medication I am on puts a wet blanket on a lot of facets of my life and even makes me angry at times. It is really a drag but it is vital. I’m afraid I would be dead without it.
I get by. So far so good. I wish I could write as well as some of you other Abctalers or even Ms Kerouac. I am very earth bound and not very floral in my language. A practical Capricorn.
Oh I hope I didn’t bore you too much? Almost bored myself.
Comments
Silver Spun Sand | August 13, 2011 - 13:13
On the contrary, Pia I enjoyed, so very much, reading 'your slice of life'.
In all honesty, I think we all think of ourselves as 'boring', but I have yet to meet a truly boring person...except myself, of course;-)
I like the way you describe yourself as 'a practical Capricorn'. I am in no way 'a practical Leo', but that's another story;-)
A brave, and successful stab at a challenging IP.
Tina;-)
Highhat | August 13, 2011 - 13:46
That is a very lovely comment Tina- really cheered me up. Thank you so much for that. That is because fire is your element Tina- a Capricorn's element is earth- that is why I am very earthy- I'm actually a double Capricorn- my sun and ascendant is in Capricorn.
;)Pia
skinner_jennifer | August 13, 2011 - 14:24
Well Pia,
you know you're a Capricorn, well I'm a typical
Cancerian and you are supposed to be my opposite
sign, which means we are supportive of each other,
so we would get on.
You have written a piece of your life here, it
certainly didn't bore me. I hope that in the future
you can find what you truely want, you never know
what's around the corner, or who will come into your
life, when you least expect it.
By the way, an excellent piece for the IP.
Jenny.
Highhat | August 13, 2011 - 14:40
That was very encouraging Jenny- thank you so much. It's been a pretty dreary day actually and the weather is so dull.
You must have just had your birthday then- congratulations or Happy Birthday rather.
thank you for your kind words- yeah maybe someday something will really keel me over with a bit of excitement and joy-
;)Pia
maggyvaneijk | August 13, 2011 - 15:02
Pia, this didn't bore me one bit! I think Tina is completely right, we all think we're dreary and boring and just generally blegh (well I'm sure there are people out there who think they're the bomb but oh well) and when I read your piece I don't think any of those things. I really like how you've given us a peek into your day, it's filled with honesty and I want to come and find you and have a coffee with you because you seem like a great person. I like your laptop position as well, I tend to sit like that too. So comfortable :)
Highhat | August 13, 2011 - 16:12
That is a very nice comment Maggie- Now my day is starting to brighten up a bit- it's past 6pm- ha ha
I wonder if you will be at the Wheatsheaf 21st September? I'd also like to meet you if you are coming? I'll be flying in from Copenhagen- ha ha surprise.. going to spend a whole week in London. Haven't had a holiday for years and years.
Anyway thanks a mill for your more than kind words
;)Pia
maggyvaneijk | August 13, 2011 - 16:35
You know what, I'm going to make it my mission to get there now. Basically I'm in Holland now and need to find a place to live because my course starts in London in October but worst case I'll live in a hostel for a bit. I'll see you on the 21st!
Highhat | August 13, 2011 - 16:46
Fantastic- see you there. I am staying at a hostel in Hammersmith- dirt cheap-
hudsonmoon | August 13, 2011 - 17:15
I'm glad you were up to the IP challenge, Pia. And you stood the challenge rather well. I think most good souls think themselves rather dull. I know I do. But I'm never bored or dulled by anything I've read of yours.
Rich
skinner_jennifer | August 13, 2011 - 17:34
Hi Pia,
glad you're feeling happier, you never know going
to the Wheatsheaf and coming to England might be
the best thing to happen.
And by the way, you're not at all boring, infact
I would say the complete opposite.
Jenny.
P.S. thankyou for the Birthday Wishes, my birthday
was July 5th.
Highhat | August 13, 2011 - 17:49
That was a kind comment Rich. Thank you very much.
;)Pia
Highhat | August 13, 2011 - 17:50
Thanks Jenny- I'm sure I will have a great time in London and Swindon- ;D thank you for getting back to me- you are so sweet...
;)Pia
insertponceyfre... | August 13, 2011 - 18:28
I don't think this is at all boring pia- on the contrary, it's a well written response to the ip. And how nice that you're coming to the reading! I hope to see you there
Highhat | August 13, 2011 - 19:20
Thank you very much Insert. I suppose I was boring myself to death. The weather is bad - AGAIN. Blast!
I hope to see you at the reading. I'll need the address but I suppose Tony will announce it later. I'm looking forward to it.
I'm glad you liked this. Really pleased. Thank you very much.
;)Pia
thanks for the cherry- that helped brighten my evening!!!Tastes good- uhmsch
seashore | August 13, 2011 - 19:28
Pia - nothing about this piece was the least boring to me. There were many bits I could relate too but not sure I have the courage to write about - or do it half as well as you did.
Thanks for sharing. x
skinner_jennifer | August 13, 2011 - 19:48
Dear Pia,
Congratulations on the well deserved cherries,
I think you really deserved them.
Jenny.
Highhat | August 14, 2011 - 08:20
I know what you mean about having the courage Coral. Sometimes I think I am too open but it really is therapy for me writing about my life.
Thank you for reading and commenting.
;)Pia
Highhat | August 14, 2011 - 08:21
That's very kind of you Jenny. Thank you very very much.
I tell you the cherry really did cheer me up ;D I think I wrote about a million drafts for this one- ha ha
;)Pia
Overthetop1 | August 15, 2011 - 16:42
Pia I loved this and no it wasn't at all boring. I hardly ever get dressed either. Can't see the point and some days it takes all my energy to do the simplest things. Really glad you got a cherry for this.
Highhat | August 15, 2011 - 18:37
Thanks a lot OTT- glad I'm not the only one. Was refreshing to hear. Thank you for the extra cherry ;D
;)Pia
RachelPatricia | August 15, 2011 - 20:02
Wonderful, Pia! I'm a Capricorn too - New Year's Day baby here (you'd think it'd be great but everyone is still hungover from the night before so I usually get my birthday wishes on the 2nd), but anyway... I want to come to the meeting so much now! Can't believe loads of my favourite writers are going and I'm not - I'm going to have to hatch a plan!
This is one of the best IP's we've ever had if you ask me and it really is so great to find out a little bit more about everyone - as everyone else has said, this is so far from boring it's ridiculous, and so well written that I wish there had been more! If you and Maggy go for that coffee please save me a seat and shout me a latte in, won't you?!
All the best and congrats on the cherries - will see if I can wing-it and get to the Wheatsheaf in September, would love to meet you all :)
Rachel xx
Highhat | August 15, 2011 - 20:53
I really hope you can come to the reading Rachel- that would be brilliant. The more the merrier, eh?
So pleased you liked this one and glad you told me.
Yes it is a very good IP- there have been some outstanding responses...
See you the 21st September- hope you can wangle it
(take your kids along...)
;)Pia
lenchenelf | August 16, 2011 - 09:29
From one Capricorn to another, a starsign doesn't imbue us with a particular set of qualities, but maybe, just maybe, being Winter's child influences a view on the world :-)
Good write, good read :-)
all the best Lena xx
Highhat | August 16, 2011 - 15:04
Hi Lena- just thought that earthy people were always very practical???
Anyway thanks for reading
;)Pia