Purplecat's response to Karl Wiggins
Hi Karl,
I've just read the piece you asked me to. You've obviously had the good fortune never to have suffered from clinical depression - and I hope you never do. There is a vast difference between reactive and clinical depression. Reactive depression is triggered by an event, a death, separation, etc. Clinical depression, far from being bullshit, is a medically recognised disorder with physical causes. Clinical depression caused by a chemical imbalance is as real as diabetes or hypothyroidism. A body chemical is absent or produced in too small a quantity to allow the normal delivery of seratonin to the brain. As a result, you don't initially think, 'God, I'm depressed'. It comes out of the blue, you get very tired, the tiredness declines into chronic fatigue. You physically ache from head to toe because your sensory perceptions are altered by the imbalance of brain chemicals. You can't sleep, have no appetite, the lack of sleep makes you clumsy, you become accident prone, and your thoughts become very disordered.
As a result of sleep deprivation and a bad diet, it's then that what most non-sufferers would typify as 'depression', i.e. feeling low, weepy, etc, starts to set in. You start to lose touch with reality and shun the outside world and social interaction. You simply cannot order your thoughts and performing even the most basic of tasks becomes arduous. It's almost as if some alien force has taken you over, especially if you're normally quite a vibrant and energetic person. There are two people - the 'you' that you know, struggling to get out, and the 'thing' you've become, ensuring the real you doesn't break through.
I know 'Major D' is quite a confusing piece, and many people have read more into it than is actually there. Essentially, we all have demons to fight, and visualising them is often the best way to do so - as Meriel Meredith does in the story. The main issue being posed is simply: did she imagine the Major as a result of her depression, or was he truly some demonic entity who visited it upon her? Did her young descendant simply get spooked? Does she suffer depression herself, and was the Major's appearance before her, her own visualisation of a demon to be fought? Or was he real, returning to fulfil his prophecy of revenge?
Oh my God - I've written a bloody novel - sorry Karl and anyone else. By the way, I liked your piece despite disagreeing considerably with your attitude towards clinical depression. None of us can afford to donate to every good cause, the dilemma of who to help does often leave us helping no-one - and yes, I recognise the guilt trip, too. Sorry to waffle on for so long! By the way - what makes you so sure Purplecat is a 'she'?



