Life, and all that.
Tue, 2006-03-07 10:38
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Life, and all that.
Today is eight years since my mum died, and even though you think there are some things in life you'll never get through, you always do. I find that reassuring - but also quite shocking.
Life's funny isn't it? I mean really funny. Yesterday I had this really clear thought that the whole thing is just very funny (in a kind of dark, ridiclous way)- and it made me laugh for ten minutes straight. Does this mean I have now reached a Buddhist plain of being, or that I drank too much coffee?
I'd go for the Buddhist thing, fergal. Life is ridiculous; when you can stand far enough back from it you can see it.
But coffee *is* rather nice, especially French roast.
I used to get these really bad depressive bouts about really stupid things. I've found that the ability to see how ridiculous life really is helps me get it all in perspective. I was talking to my friend a while back and I said something like "I don't 'fit in' with the Church so I can't do my job and everything will fall apart."
He said, "EVERYTHING is a word too often used by us, who see the world in black and white."
"Okay, everything won't fall apart" I replied "but some things will fall apart in spectacular fashion."
"Well if it does, sit back and enjoy the spectacle."
I think that's a really useful piece of advice!
"Alice laughed: "There's no use trying," she said; "one can't believe impossible things."
"I daresay you haven't had much practice," said the Queen. "When I was younger, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."
Alice in Wonderland.
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