My heartfelt emotional RoLLeR-CoAsTeR

You're the only thing on my mind while he's holding me tonight. His touch is soft &; gentle. His squeeze is comfortable &; tight. He's doing everything perfect, but it just doesn't feel right. Your kiss is what I long for. Your face is all I see. I close my eyes to hold tears back. I pretend it's you holding me. The flowers are all dying. The gold &; diamond's look a fright. There's someone here beside me, but he's not the company I want tonight. I have almost everything I've ever wanted, but it doesn't mean a thing. I'll give him all the gifts back. He can have this damn ring. It wouldn't matter if there were a million guys, with a million gifts, ... It's all still merely a joke. None of this can make me happy. I mask my saddness with a smile, but my heart ...God knows, it's still broke. He says he'll give me everything I could ever want. If he only knew ... Everything I want is.....you. -January 24, 2001