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is a waste of time. Yesterday at the Scottish semi final supporters of hearts fc boooed through the minutes silence for the pope. Today in the scots papers one reporter commented that Scotland is full of bitter twisted nontitys who give the human species a bad name.

Last Week in new york a delegation from the Scottish Executive helped promote Scotland as the best 'wee' country in the world. What a joke.

In a country of just 5 million people Scotland surely according to statistics is undoubetdly the worst 'wee' country in the world. A country that boasts a bigger homicide rate than New York itself, with some of the worst health related statistics in the western world.

A lot of people around the world seem to get this notion that Scotland is some kind of romatic place, of course the people who seem to visit Scotland enhorde is rich american oil men who take this image back to the states that Scotland has no problems.

I think my real point is. At yesterdays scottish semi finals we seen the true spirit of Scotland. In a small country of just 5 million people at the countrys biggest footblall half of the crowd booed and jeered a man who worked tirelessly for world peace. Tuore some of his agendas are open to question, but, at the end of the day he worked hard to gel communtiys.

In a funny sort of way this is very much linked with what i am trying to acheive in scotland just now and how i have been hammpered, criminalised and harrassed for trying to bring attention to the Scotlands massive suicide and self harm rates amongst males and which is contiuessly denied by the Scottish executive.

the Scottish executive a few years ago put in a plan to help combat this over a fifteen year period. 15 years. Yet today i am saying that i can help make a difference a lot sooner if they listen to my plan on opening self supporting groups in Scottish communitys to deal with this. Of course no-one wants to know, yet, in England these groups where proven to be viable and helped save life.

In Scotland, the best 'wee country' in the world where some of the most abusive bigots work in service structure and which going by yesterdays Scottish cup semi final can be clearly seen, well can you see the fight i am up against.

the World Health Organsiation quite clearly state to all countrys five years ago what causes self harm and suicide and not the agenda promoted by Scotlands current health servcies which promote these agendas as to do with sexuality and abuse only. Many lifes are being lost, many people continue to scar there bodies becasue of lack of services and lack of input by those who truly know how to stem this deadly affliction.

The fight goes on to have the truth heard and for it not to be covered up under misturths of these people are mad they shouldn't be listened to. I conitue to try and start and open Scotland first group for males who where involved in self harm and to try and get Scottish media to cover these agendas so that life is saved.

the fight goes on not to let Scottish authority to be the sole people dealing with this group of people and to help highlight why Scotland suicide and self harm rates increased dramatically over the last ten years.

Has anyone else got any stories about the best 'wee' country in the world.

Scottish touris...
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i don't believe that happened.
Scottish touris...
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i hope the typos and mix up with the post don't discredit me as someone who doesn't know what i am talking about on this matter.
fatalky
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Emily. Define 'Genuine torture'
stephen_d
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ok a bad start to amnoday morning. No job, a body full of scars, no girlfriend, when i try and do decent things in life i am ignored and stood on, a childhood marked with abuse and a family who take no responsibility in this ok at least i try at least i work for charity and have done for nothing for the last 3 years at least i fucking try ok, having a good laugh at least i try lets all laugh at everyones pain. Its funny isn't it. How do you think it must feel like to live through a bullied abusive child hood then to live homeless for years then to turn the knife on yourself an dthen when you try and get help they all laugh at you like im apice of shite. Maybe if all the sensistive ones whom they are shitting on start networking up and leave loads of truck bombs in british citys, poison the food supplys, maybe if we start joiing up and steaming high streets big grown men with axes maybe they will take notice of the plight then..
stephen_d
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dont laugh dont minimise my stuggle for life and self esteem. Dont send people up to glasgow to laugh at me. Why value life if theyre going ot treat people like animals. dont laugh at people with pain...or well network up and kick the british reveloution off is that what labour wants..dont stand on us dont belittle us. if 500 men join up tomorrow and kick it of what are they going to do..this is what happens when you maim belittle good strong men..what are they going to do..you read my poetry..dont care if your what you are..well get on to the train tracks an dderail the trains pour oil omn the runways..and burn this country...where sthe groups self harm groups in scotland how come no one is helping..sont care about your media we'll stand them with st peters sword..
fergal
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Believe it or not Stephen that doesn't sound too far from my old life in some ways... I know how that feels. I just got to a stage when I realised that I would make the same things happen in the future if I didn't do something about it. I couldn't blame the past/my parents etc forever - especially because my parents are now dead and the only person I would be damaging was myself. Do something about it. The only person who can change your life now is you - you and the help you need. Some people will help you - not everyone will laugh. Believe it or not there are people out there who will help you if you are willing to let them. The thing about abusive childhoods is that they make you learn to expect people to treat you badly. But once you become an adult you have CONTROL over things. When you're a kid you don't. That's the biggest shift in understanding. Shit things don't have to happen to you... they might have once, once when you had no control, but YOU are the adult now. If you think about that it is truly a freeing and wonderful thing. If you take control and seek the right help your life could change and be something wonderful. If you don't, you'll be living like this until your life comes to its end. I know its hard, and I know you don't necessarily want to hear this, and people have said as much before. But I would really like to see you prove to yourself that you can make your life good. I really would.
stephen_d
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its a good laugh the demon sign..thats glasgow city not me,, remember that.. we will fight like men to give them with no voice a voice we will fight with axes broken bottles guns swords suicide bombers..we will fight them in the high rise flats in the city streets in villages and towns..dont belittle our pain..
stephen_d
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thats pain, its not funny. Im a writer don't tell me to leave the site. Its easy when your a women in this country able to network in with the right people to get a job, its easy being a women if you fall in to self harm every one cares and understands. Its easy to judge the less fortunate.
fergal
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I don't think I told you to leave the site stephen. I thought I was just trying to be empathetic. If there is *anyone* who is not judgemental it is me. In the words of Billy Crystal in that wonderful film When Harry Met Sally, 'I WAS BEING NICE!' Really I was.
Smiley
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I watched Mel Gibson's 'Passion' which attempts to portray Christ's suffering after his capture by the Romans and including His death on the cross. I had to force myself to watch and it took me several attempts before I managed to see it all - hated it - but it did make me realise how much some people have to go through and strangely conjured up visions of people being tortured for political rather than religious reasons. Made me realise that pain is power - the power to bring about change. Wondered if Christ used his pain to change hate into love but decided that if He did - His followers have mostly wasted that love on loving themselves rather than striving to love their enemies. [%sig%]
fergal
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p.s. that is only true if as a woman you seek help. If you don't, it doesn't seem like anyone cares, and in fact it can seem like nobody does, just like it can for a man. Some people could argue that it is easier for you stephen than it is for someone living in the middle of poverty/war torn Sudan for example... but that would be unfair to you.. and it's not a competition as to who has had it the worst.... it is relative after all. (although I've just had a horrible and strange thought that perhaps there is actually *someone* out there who has got it the worst out of everybody on the planet... god... that is humbling, huh?)
emily yaffle
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Have you ever thought about signing up for VSO or something, Stephen? Life here doesn't seem too great for you, and you've got no job and ties here. What about seeing a bit of the world and helping people? I wouldn't want to diminish the way that you feel, but perhaps working with people who have been genuinely tortured and oppressed by a really unpleasant government and police force would help you with a bit of perspective. It is horrible being depressed and lonely and miserable and wanting to self-harm, but helping other people is a route out of it.
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