Forced to examine myself...

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Tue, 2005-12-06 16:12

19 days ago...I thought my world was caving in. Without going into the gruesome details, it was bought to my attention in a savage way that my lifestyle wasn't really suited to ...well .... the path in life I had wanted to follow.

After the initial devestation, I crawled away to stay with a friend in the countryside and was forced to examine myself and determine whether I was prepared to put in the emotional, physical, mental and spiritual groundwork required to secure my continued life.

Suprisingly, I now feel more free and happy than I have ever been in my life. I still practice my faiths (and work for the Church) but feel that I have been emancipated from my previous blinkered view and denial. And I have found real unconditional love.

Have you ever had a completely shattering experience that has led to the creation of something better. Do we need to demolish to rebuild? Do we need the cross for the resurrection? To die to be born again? To be broken to be loved?

jude xxx

Tue, 2005-12-06 19:36

mississippi

I had to do that, but it's no fun playing with your own balls. So they finally told you that nuns don't get pissed/smoke grass/wear footbawl shirts/get banned from pubs? Never had a bad experience that led to better things, only misery. To 'rebuild' infers demolition or decay, so I guess we do. The other questions are beyond me.

Tue, 2005-12-06 20:58

poetjude

I'm NOT a stonner...but err well apart from that ...hmmm

Tue, 2005-12-06 21:00

poetjude

... I still wear footbawl shirts though George!

Tue, 2005-12-06 22:51

justyn_thyme

No one has ever been arrested for being under the inflluence of a football shirt, so I wouldn't worry about that one. *at least I don't think anyone has--I could be wrong*

Tue, 2005-12-06 23:18

mississippi

I know you're not a dope-head, Jude. I was just giving a selection of scenarios for you to choose from, (some of which you are notorious for enacting).

Wed, 2005-12-07 00:50

martin_t

nuns do drink though, and occasionally have a few too many

Wed, 2005-12-07 10:09

archergirl

Ahhh, Jude. The Hindu goddess Kali ('the Destroyer') is one of the most important deities in that religion. She plays a vital role in destroying (the ego, mostly) in order that Creation has a space to do something! Creation and Destruction are nothing without one another. There have been many such moments in my life; in fact, I have just crawled out of a six-year destruction/examination of Self/leaving a vacuum for something better episode. I feel much better for having done so, but lemme tell ya, t'weren't fun at the time. I'm sure it won't be the last 'destruction' episode in your life; the good thing is, you now see that they are, in fact, very valuable!

Wed, 2005-12-07 12:38

Corvus

Looking for some kind of escapism - you might find it in booze or religion - both are false gods. A humanistic understanding of our failings and wonders as diverse human beings is the path I would recommend you to follow. If you look between the lines of all the great spiritual tecahings history has to offer, you will always find the same messages of freedom of expression, thought and action, love for family, respect for others and respect for the world around you. Don't fall into some doctrine that tries to tell you anything or anyone or any act is evil. We are just human, and fucked up and beautiful for it all the same.

Wed, 2005-12-07 15:06

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styx

I was just wondering - tangentially - well I am pissed; if Jesus came back today and they wanted to crucify him again, would they be slightly kinder and use 'No More Nails' ?

Wed, 2005-12-07 15:22

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polidori

That would be too much like a wallpaper paste advert. Thousand of years time folks will worship Polycell and hold Holy Communion with lumpy poridge. Perhaps sterilized nails, EEC regulation 20cm, and an ergonomic cross for greater comfort.

http://www.beyondsampled.co.uk

Wed, 2005-12-07 17:27

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styx

Alcohol - a false God?! How dare you try to ruin my world KJH. Let me remind you of the old Latin saying - In Vino Veritas.

Thu, 2005-12-08 09:41

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Corvus

I've heard all about 'In Vino Verita', Styx, but from my expererience, the more realistic phrase is 'In Vino Bollux'.

Thu, 2005-12-08 10:54

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poetjude