No Writing for a while

Posted by Dark Fox on Mon, 04 May 2026

So not been writing for a while. Just getting through each day as it comes. My boyfriend is amazing, patient and everything like that but feel not myself. I feel angry alot, and then sad then happy. This can be in one day. I am struggling with my emotions alot. I am trying to be the best version of me for my boyfriend because if he sees me at my worst... well i don't think he will want me anymore.

Stupid thoughts in my head all day everyday. I want the thoughts to leave me alone so I can eat better, sleep better, love better. 

I have a cold that I got off my son as i had him when he was really ill and not his dad who says he loves him and wants him but then burdens him to me when things get difficult. I am the primary caregiver, taking him to doctors, dentist, haircuts etc. If you don't like the way i do his hair you take him. But he doesn't. I pay for all of this. This is the first time that I have had money in six months for our son's haircut. It is silly I have to beg. 

I guess I am messed up mentally right now. I don't know how I feel about anything. Thought wrting here might help? Who knows

Comments

Submitted by insertponceyfre... on

I hope it does help Dark Fox - and that the cold goes soon!

 

Submitted by celticman on

writing does help. getting things down. It's like an exorcism, without the flin-flan. (Mental) health benefits are well documented. 

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

I'm a stranger to you this I know, but I really feel for you., Know that when you're in that very dark pit of despair it can be difficult to scramble up and out. But try and stick with it, because when you reach your lowest low, eventually you'll climb out stronger than before.

I think opening up on abc tales can be such a great tonic, because there are people who show compassion and want to see you back to your old self again, writing and sharing your words...I know because I've been there and felt so much love.

Take care of yourself.

Jenny.