Started but where now?

Posted by Dark Fox on Mon, 23 Sep 2024

Well now I have written a piece in the first time for years. My son is older and doesn't need my constant attention. He can use his time wisely now and seems to demand less of mine. I love him and it makes me proud that he can use his own time and not need constant attention. I can focus again on my writing and ideas for writng.

I loved the feeling of writng again. It made my anxiety go down and made me feel alittle more human. A bit more of a human and less mother. I love my son and now he is older I am regaining more of me before I became a mother. I enjoy being a mother but it is nice to feel more than that again.

Anyway enough about that. Enough writing for the day on here and hope to write more again soon. Lots of ideas and trying to make sense of them. Please read and keep checking back in case there is something new.

 

Comments

Submitted by celticman on

good luck and keep writing. 

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

I understand your feelings completely. Having time to write is the perfect way to spend spare time, and so important, especially if you suffer anxiety.

Good luck with your future writing.

Jenny.

 

Submitted by Caldwell on

I never used to write much. I made up songs and did silly drawings, plus the occasional poem. I told myself as a teenager that I would record at least one album, write a book, and maybe even make a documentary but all that fell away when I had kids.

When I pick up the guitar now, I always play the same old songs. I can't seem to generate anything fresh. When I draw I inevitably end up with the head of an ugly man with an extra long nose. Sometimes I'll get as far as his flat chest and pot belly with ultra-thin hairy arms but that's about it.

For some reason, though, perhaps because of the openness of the format here, I just feel free - no rules, just let it out. I love the community even though it feels a little smaller than when I first joined, but the encouragement of fellow writers and the wide range of skills and interests makes this a wonderful environment to just have a go.

It's not just kids, it's partners, terrible personal tragedies, and dizzying distractions of this spiralling, fucked up world that is extremely dangerous to view through the lens of Social Media but oh so addictive that it swallows whole evenings.

Just to find that little peaceful moment and that intriguing thought to stretch out into something you can share. It's life-affirming, even if you're saying something desperately sad, and I have to say, Dark Fox, you do like to entertain those shadowy thoughts. But it's great that you do and I'm happy you're back.

 

Submitted by Dark Fox on

I appreciate this comment. I am so glad that I am not the only one who did things when I was younger. I did some songs as a teenager and never made an album either. I have one song in my collection called I wonder and thanks to modern technology I have managed to put that song to some kind of music. It was my husband using some kind of AI. It doesnt quite sound the same as I envisioned it, but it is close enough. 

I used to write loads and I feel like it is time to start again. I am happy to be back and hope to continue for a while. Thank you for your encouragement. 

Kayleigh Nichols