Light and dark

I wish for the darkness of day/night to descend. It's like a cloak I can wear over my sadness. During the day, if it is very bright like now when the air reflects the light of the snow I wish for it to grow dark because that is the mood I am in- too much brightness and I am reminded of how my unhappiness doesn't match the daylight. I don't feel this way every day and when I am happy then I am truly happy. So I know what happiness is. Not everyone can feel the happiness even though they have experienced it. It is so sad when you are that depressed. There's always hope and if you can cling on to hope you'll cope with life.