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Your anonymous alcoholism, alcoholic anonymity is destroying your child, turning your child into suicidal homicidal me. If there were to be any book with any autobiographical content, then, presumably, it would, in part, have to reflect on my, what I currently perceive to be, my misnomer childhood & how that has led to a misnomer adulthood. If I were to write such a book, potentially with someone to help to advise & organize for readability, legibility,..... If in that month & that year my opinions are what they have been for the past two or three years or so, in the perspective of October, 2013, I would suggest or assert that my perception is that my parents' anonymous alcoholism & violence very deeply have caused emotional disability, physical disability, cognitive disability. Reference #myofascial . I would suggest that my anomalous political perspective, radical theological perspective, extreme difficulty in communicating with city government, county government, medical profession, particularly police department, as well as with anyone else, including my own self, are largely results of parental torture & enforced anonymity, enforced alcoholic anonymity. I would want to warn potential parents to not recreate another generation of me. I beg, plead of everyone, that there never again be a me. My repetition, in further generation, should never be your objective. There are far too many of me. I can see that any statement that I offer of roughly two thousand words or so leaves people confused as to what my thesis is; so, anything that would substantiate a book would require paragraph by paragraph & page by page organization. I want any remnant of my horrific disgusting existence to be a red flag &/or orange plastic rubber cone of the highway of parenting in centuries hence for potential parents to not travel the route that my parents & I have. I must warn against the danger, hazard, Hell, destruction, physical disability, emotional disability, cognitive disability, financial disability, myofascial, myofascial migraine, horror, dysfunction, malfunction, nonfunction, failure, terror, torture, chronic fatigue, malcontention, ostracization,...... of anonymous alcoholism, alcoholic anonymity, twelve step twelve tradition « Serenity Prayer »ism. Please do not condemn, do not commit your child to be me. Please put the secrecy on a diet; only employ anonymity & confidentiality where there is truly no other choice. I shall never have the strength of anyone good like Irena Sendlerowa, Irena Sendler, Irena Krzyżanowska, Irena Krzyzanowski; however, she is an example of the sort of reminder that I try to employ to remind me to avoid excess anonymity, excessive secrecy. Please do permit the truth to get out there. I do, hereby, demand that you encourage your alcoholism to escape the closet. If your heterosexuality is out of the closet, if your bisexuality does roam free, if your homosexuality could grand marshal a parade an hour from now, then, I do contend that it is time for your alcoholism skeleton to dance in public. I, hereby, employ my name as an example,..... It is time to convert from « Hello, my name is Don & I am an alcoholic, » to « Hello, my name is DonFphrnqTaub Persina & I am an alcoholic, » not simply in a meeting, but, publicly. Much of this nation’s, United States of America’s problems do seem to settle in Florida, because some people figure that more sunshine, more hurricane, might solve problems, so, I suggest statements like « Hello, my name is George Anthony & I am an alcoholic, » birth, 1951, « Hello, my name is Cindy Anthony or Cynthia Marie McCall & I am an alcoholic, » 1958, « Hello, my name is Casey Marie Anthony & I am an alcoholic, » born 1986, approximately, « Hello, my name is George Michael Zimmerman & I am an alcoholic, » 1983, said in public, might have averted many problems. I chose Florida only because it does seem to dominate the news, not to imply that it has exclusivity to such stories. If my parents had consistently, publicly made the same declaration in the 1950’s, the 1960’s, they would have tortured me far less, I surmise, in the 1960’s, 1970’s, on Long Island,..... My parents might not have demanded that we move to Arizona in 1976. I might have had the opportunity to view the World Trade Twin Towers @ least once. As a five year old, 1965, with my three year old brother & parents, was my first alcoholic anonymity meeting, Huntington Village, Huntington Township. I chronically wonder whether I had been the only person in that entire room to recall that meeting in, say, 1970, in 1980, in January, 2011, when Ed Brian Persina died @ forty nine & a half, or when my father died in March, 2011. Most of the people in that room are now quite dead. It was likely summer, or @ least I think that it had been warm. I do recall the coffee & tobacco stench. Now, in 2013, I continue to flinch, cringe @ attempting to swallow coffee. Tobacco causes me to think homicide. Loud noise makes me think homicide. Please do not stench of tobacco near me, even from a week ago. Please do not impose an electric amplified speaker system upon me. Learn about myofascial. Learn about child torture. Myofascia is connective tissue undercoat to skin & muscle; when myofascia malfunction, everything is broke & broken. Every month there are stories regarding brain injury pertinent to football, baseball, basketball, hockey & military. Never is there a brain injury story regarding a tortured child sixty years later, eighty years later. Never, ever. Human society does put extensive effort into ensuring that the physical disability community, emotional disability community, cognitive disability community, financial disability community, underclass is or are classed as inhuman, nonhuman, humanoid, subhuman, alien, almost human, not quite human. « But now, with a most inhuman cruelty, they who have put out the peoples’ eyes, reproach them of their blindness;.... » which John Milton wrote in 1642 in Christian advocacy. Despite my being devout #agnostic & #ignostic & my disability not specifically being blind, I do believe that it, isolated from the phrases fore & aft, is entirely applicable to me. #ignosticism #agnosticism Thank You, DonFphrnqTaub Persina