trying to understand you God without judging you tying things together, trying again&again to understand you. am i just here for your glory? what about my problems,
i try hard, work hard trying testing myself, trying to go beyond the narrow limits of my education, trying to find a better way of doing things, trying to understand
where do they go? dotheyrun&hide seek some fear, some hidden desire to attach themselves to? do they disappear into the mind of God, do they simply dissolve? allthethingsyoumeanttosay
sometimes i explode with tears, fold the towels, drain... little by little drip by drip my confusion dissolves... i'm outside the window, the mirror the blind someone ought to know
where am i between two lines, trying so hard to be good on the one side, on the other stuck to the earth, made of primal instincts, a military demeanor, straight, stuck to the gun after.