AFTER MADNESS

A SERIES OF ESSAYS ON MY LIFE, MYPAST, MY MADNESS AND MY RETURN TO SANITY.

AFTER MADNESS - CH 1 : 2 - I Don't Like Crowds.

Being insane was a lot easier in that I never had time to wonder what to do.

AFTER MADNESS - CH 1 : 3 - I Don't Like crowds.

My memories of the woman's death are fragmented. I remember being at the top of the stairs with a woman who was holding me in her arms.

AFTER MADNESS - CH 1 : 4 - I Don't Like Crowds.

My next memory is of being in a large room with a stage at one end and high windows and ceiling. On the stage was the woman.

AFTER MADNESS - CH 1 : 5 - I Don't Like Crowds.

There were other things that I have snapshot memories of. The man on the stage came to the edge after he had cut the woman's head off and held up what I believe to be one of the organs of the woman .
Cherry

AFTER MADNESS - CH 1 : 6 - I Don't Like Crowds.

I looked up my psuedo family today on Facebook. They were ALL there! Margaret is alive still. She must be 79 years old. John is alive too - her 2nd husband, and both my "sisters" and their kids!

AFTER MADNESS - CH 2 : 1 - Relatively Speaking

My little 'sister' Debra accepted my add on Facebook. My cousin Phillip did it last week. I understand Phillip because we always got on and he is doing music too, but Deb?

AFTER MADNESS - CH 2 : 2 - Relatively Speaking

My older sister, Sandra, looks just like Margaret did at the same age. It is quite scary. I don't look like any of them. Thank god!

AFTER MADNESS - CH 3 - 2

When I was fifteen I had a flashback in Wigan High street.

AFTER MADNESS - CH 3 -1

I had a lot of problems fitting in as a child. I was terrified of doorways, upstairs and the thing that would come and get me. I'd seen it.

RETURN FROM THE PRECIPICE

RETURN FROM THE PRECIPICE. When I finally broke everything turned hectic. My psyche like a wound gone septic. The adrenalin breakdown in my blood precipitating